"How do you think about this dress?" Best friend asked.
"I dont know, I dont like it. It's perfect for you if you're 70."
Wait, it wasnt really mean.
Anyway, so aint best friends are someone you can say everything with? Just because you're my best friend I feel comfortable to say what I want. You dont expect me to burst everything out to an ordinary friend, right? Best friend knows when I'm being serious, when I'm telling a joke, I didnt ask for too much to think that way right?
There's a gang of best friends I've been mixing with since primary school. They give me good advises, they know my joke, they'll be here when I need helps with no string attached, they can fully accept the way I am - the REAL me. I really feel perfectly comfortable to be with them, sincerely. And I love them.
REAL me give REAL comments, speak REAL words which are happens to be offensive to those who dont know me or not closed with me. That's why I hard to get a real friend who understand me, and once I take you as my real friend, it's really hard for me to get closed with other people. I think I'm weird.
There's an incident happened months ago. Though it's been awhile, it still runs in my mind over and over again. It's actually not a big deal but I just cant get through of it.
I said something... bad about my bestie's bf and she got mad at me. Like real mad. I SWEAR I WAS JUST KIDDING, I dont mean it and I really said it in a joking way. ...This is how it happened... We were in the car, I was holding her handphone, there came her bf's call, his grimaced face popped out and I said..........
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'Yer why your bf so yong soi (ugly) wan?'
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Was that too much? I dont know, if I was her I wont be so mad, in fact I'll say 'Yea I think so' and laugh together with her. Because I know she didnt meant it, and that was apparently a joke after all. I cant think for whatever reason she can be so mad at me about it.
She showed me the face after that. And when I asked her something she either keeps quiet or answer me rudely. Well I'm not a piece of wood, certainly I realized something is going wrong.
"Are you mad at me...?" I asked timidly.
"Everyone has their limit." She said sternly.
I know but I was so hurt! D= But I realized it was my fault to say that so I apologized. And she accepted it. Then we're good again. =D
However, what I feel hurt is... she cant take the way I am... I mean...I mean she should know I was just kidding! Right...? ...Or it's a no-no/taboo to talk about people's bf/gf even though that's your bestie? Is that really a forbidden?
Anyway, I'm not accusing her of not understanding my joke or whatever. But this incident made me think again, should or should not take your best friends for granted. I used to think it's perfectly alright to do that as they are your best friends. But now I'm confused. As what she said, everyone has their limits after all...
Maybe we just should not take anyone for granted except your parents?
I've been hesitating should I write it out, as that's really a big chance she will know I'm talking about her here and I really afraid it gonna affects our friendship, THAT is really what I DONT WANT it happens AT ALL. But it really stuck in my mind ever since. I'd feel better to say it out.
***Dear Love,
If you're reading this, for whatever reason PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont get mad (you know I'm really scared of that). =(
I love you! You know I really do! For now, for tomorrow, forever!
X.o.x.o.



































