You, you, you and you.

I think I wont meet any nice guy anymore in the rest of my life. == Cuz I already missed 3. Which perhaps they liked me so much. But I didnt hold on them. =/

3 of em are the seniors of my high school. But of course, they chased after me in different time. Dont expect me to typr their names out. XD Let's call them J, C and N. You might know who are they IF you know me or you're from the same high school as mine.

J is a sweet guy. But I was too young that time. Mum says, NO love offair before you graduate! So we didnt make it though everyone thought we're going together that time. This made us quite popular that time. XD And we're end. =/

C, what can I say is we're fateless. It was predestined that we can to be together. But I'm not going to say why. Aiks.

N was my first bf which loved me so much. He cares about me and everything. But hmm it's too complicated to explain what happened. But it was my fault. It was my fault that I didnt hold on him. I did something stupid and I hurt him deeply. *That's why I got the karma now. == Due to my guiltiness, I broke up with him. I think... if time turns back, things might be different. =/

Nahh, I said these not because of I cant let something go. I just feel a little bit wasted on what I've done which I could make things in a better way.

Owh yea, there's another guy, L, who loved me so much as well. But I didnt fall for him. So we became good friends after some incidents. I never meant to hurt him but it just happened. He was once the only reason I sign in my MSN, cuz I can talk anything to him. No matter how busy he was, he can just listens to my grumbles, my problems and gives me suggestions or advices. As a friend, I really do appreciate him. But I think I too selfish. I thought he'll always be there when I need someone to talk to, cuz I know he loves me. He told me not to take him for granted but I never regret on that. Now, I believe he already totally gave up on me. We didnt talk anymore. Maybe he's just busy, or maybe there's some other reasons. But hey, thanks dude. ;) You know I'm talking about you if you're reading. I used to have you as my supporter and super fans! XD Thanks for everything. =)

Now everything is over, we should look forward and move on. Aiks. There are soooo many stupid things I did. == Perhaps I'll be smarter next time. ;D

I'm kinda at ease about writing all these things here cuz I know none of them are reading my blog. XD

It's already 10th and I still dont have my first Sept's post. XD Let's blog something!

Guess what!!! I slept at 12:30pm yesterday!!! Damn early right?? Yea I know I know. Cuz I didnt sleep at the previous day. I mean almost didnt sleep. And then I woke up at 7am today! But then I slept again until 3pm... ==
Owh yea, I went Qb with my friends yesterday. Sadly my Winnie cant make it cuz according to what she said, her stomach got bacteria! =.= Haha. Too much candy or what? XDDD
Before we got home, we went Auto City for dinner, supposed to. Cuz I slept while they were eating. I didnt even know they were eating! Until I saw the dishes when they woke me up. I bumped into Shane and Kelley and err Yong Zheng (perhaps -.=) and another which I already forgot the name (sorry!).

My old friend, Chee Liang said I look damn cool! An unfriendly cool. He doesnt know how to express it even. Haha! But I thought I look sweet?? XDDDD
Alright alright. Indeed, I'm not THAT friendly to strangers. I mean I can be polite but not enthusiastic. I can be crazily crazy but only with my BBF. I guess you dont want me to list out who are my BBF. XD

By the way, I dont really want to accept strangers in my msn. There are too much in my fb. I dont need them to cram my msn also. =.= I'm sorry if I didnt accept your request or I didnt reply you.

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I'm been busy on doing the cross stitch this few days. XD See! I can sew!

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There's a guy in my fb. I dont know him. We never talk to each other before. But i found he's very very annoying. The thing he post, the way he post and so on. And look at all the pictures you can see he's the type who totally thought he's handsome but actually he's not. But god damn I can always see him appears on my news feed! Sounds familiar?? Maybe he's the one you think he is.

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End.

Read ME little. ;)

Some people said that I'm so lazy to blog now. Indeed, my blog issssssss deadly dead. I got nothing to blog about! I dont have a study pressure, work pressure and money pressure too. Haha. What? No no. I'm not going to talk about my relationship and what I did. Yeaaa I did whine about it sometimes but I didnt point everything out! Ha! Hmm you can ask me personally if you're interested. XD I might tell you if I need someone to talk. Just need to make sure who are you to me. I dont talk much to strangers.

I'm currently watching the drama, Gossip Girl. It's quite nice. Haha I know I'm too slow to watch it. I'm only in Season 1. Okay. Nothing else I can talk about my life. Let's talk about me. If you're interested to know. =P

I know most of the people who dont know me, or know me but not that well, anyway, those who know me well, they must know one thing, I Dont Drink Milk, at all. Those who thought I love milk, they must be misled by my boobs. People, doesnt means big boobies love milk. That's wrong. I dont drink milk but still I've no idea what's wrong with "them". I was totally a flat board until I was 15. Milk cause me nausea and I'll puke if I drink too much. And I dont drink papaya milk either. == Dont doubt, my boobs most probably inheritated from my mum. You know, there're some haters in my high school even made a rumour that I did a plastic surgery. Come on. Get a life. Admit that you're jealous cuz you're flat. But who cares. Thanks for making me DAMN famous in my school life. Btw, I'm already famous at my area before my boobs grows up. XD

Coffee, tea or me~?
Owh me pick TEA. And I dont drink coffee. I dont know why, I just dont drink. And everything smell or taste like coffee, are out of my list too. For no reason. I love tea though it would make me sound like an oldie. XD But tea are healthy right? Tea has flouride for strong teeth, virtually no calories, and half the amount caffeine found in an equally-sized cup of coffee. Then why not tea? Haha.

I'm good in sports when I was in high school. Dooubtless, I got quite alot of medals. Owh speeches too! And singing! XD I'm good in singing. =D Drawing anddddddd collecting books? Haha. I love books except for school books.

Heyyy, I'd like to talk about the haters in my high school. Omg they are really a group of bitchy bitches. I always got scold in the school which I actually dont know what's going on. And most of them are younger than me. == Yes, I got bullied.
I remember there's one time when I was stay back for afternoon's some practices. I went in the toilet with a bestie, then some girls came in. They then saw me and started to scold me. But I only know that they're scolding after we came out from toilet, my bestie told me. I was like shrug and walk away.
I guess they are just too free or jealousy or unconfident or whatever. Is that my fault that their boyfriends pursued me before them?? Blame your face then, or your personallity. I sound mean but trust me, they even worse. == I got scold with all the bad words because of some stupid reasons.
Some of them scold me cuz they say I act cute or my artificial manners. Hello, I born cute, I dont need to act cute. HAHAHA! And I'm not overacting, you people are just too rude. Sigh, they are just some poor souls of sooooo unconfident to themselves, and they blamed that on me. =/ Hahaha I know I sound conceited, but just let me please myself.

Am I bolg too much?? I think that's enough. XD

x.o.x.o

Is me, dont wanna confront it or what?
It's like all the evidences are putting in front of me but I still hoping for something?

This is how I tell my friends, 'Once over, it's over.'
Yea, I insisted this. Cuz everything happens for the reasons. It must be something wrong or the problems there and caused the relationships end.

'He doesnt trust me at all!'
'She wanted me to pay everything she bought. It makes me broke!'
'He's awful! He shower once a week!'
'He lies to me!'
'She wants me to carry her fluffy bag for her everytime we date!'
'He thought he's a king that he wanted me to wash his underwear and he think this is reasonable!'
'He's too jealousy. He doesnt allow me to go out even on fb!'
...
and so on.
'That's why we broke up.'

And then a love story is over.

Yeah we know, to build a relationship, we need trust, tolerance, honesty, understanding, enthusiasm, loyalty and etc.
We are imperfect. We make mistake sometimes. So we need tolerance. But it only use in first few times. Do it repeatingly means you dont take it serious. It'll becomes your habit, and then problems come.
When comes to making mistakes' part, we also need understanding. Cuz there are some mistakes you need to know what's the reason. For examples, why he is late? Why he didnt pick up your calls? Why he/she didnt tell you why they're outing with someone you might feel insecure?

See, it's easy to talk but always hard to do.
Okok, back to the topic. I'm not here for teaching and I'm too green to teach about these. XD

Alright. I'm the one say, 'once over, it's over', but I cant do it. *now I know
I cant hold myself to think maybe we're just misunderstanding each other?
I cant hold myself to recall every good thing when I forced myself to face the problems and convince myself that we're good. I'm just think too much.
I wanna believe that we can make it. I try to, but I'm really scared.

According to what I said, what I did are just slapping my own mouth.

You're still the same, I'm still the same.
We are still the same.

# Just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doent mean they dont love you with all they have. #

or
# Dont waste your time on a man/woman, who isnt willing to waste their time on you. #

Which should I refer to? =/

Once it broken.

You can paste it back if you break a vase or a glass. But as the saying goes, even if it can paste it back, the rips still there.

Then what about trust? Once it's broken, that's really hard to paste back. At least it's based on my own ecxperience. Haha.
So should we just ignore the rips? Or just admit that, you cant take those already broken?

Yes I'm a coward. And I'm scared to endure the same thing again.
Alcohol can enlarge your courage! ;)

Now I know =)

I thought I'll be a very good girlfriend until I found out that I'm actually not.
I thought forgiveness is the best way to show I'm understanding. I thought it'll make my bf appreciate me even more cuz I'm way understanding than others. But now I know it doesnt work that way I thought. =/

I always say 'up to you', 'whatever' doesnt mean I dont have my own mind, cuz I wanna know what's in your mind. But now I know it's very important to speak my mind.

I'm not romantic. I dont know how to creat surprises like how other gfs can do though I really wanna make one for my bf. It's really struggling and upset when some special day is coming soon. I really wanted to do something but everytimes end up nothing.

There might have some defects that I forgot to mention but yeah, I'm not as good as I thought haha.

While in the opposite side, I FULLY trust my bf. =) But you must act on the premise that YOU'RE LOVE ME. Cuz I'll appreciate you every minute and second.

Remember that I wrote a post about terms of being my bf? Now I found myself was being so arrogant and self-conceited. That's stupid. *Cheh, who I thought I was.

While I lose something, I gain something as well.

Terms of being my bf:
1. Respects
2. Appreciate me

That's all. =)

Hahaha it sounds like I'm promoting myself! Whateverrrrrr. XD
I'm cool! ;)