I'll be Missing You

Dearest Muntatt,

P/s: I'm gonna write an essay, make sure you read it if you could!

It's been a week since the day you left.

I think I should stop grieving for you before some people think I'm overacted. But I'm NOT. It's really really pain to lose you forever in my life. And I believe, it's pain to every of your friends. 'Cause you were such a nice friend. And your true friends knew that.

Haha, you must see Hock Nam, he's like really really miss you alot. Keep telling me how good you were that night, sharing the stories between you and him. And Jun Xian, he didnt say anything but everyone knows he misses you, too. Joo Khim, Patrick, Wei Jian, Lionel, Wee Sern and May, all your buddies (which I know), they really love you alot.

We were actually know each other like three months plus but it was really like at least a year, or at least must more than three months plus la. It's really sorta amazing that I could know you and became my best friend. But THREE MONTHS PLUS IS REALLY TOO SHORT! ;( Hmph.

I know most of your friends thought there must have something between us but haha, we're really not. xD And the things I wrote and posted on fb and my blog in the past few days really quite misleading. Talk like you're my bf. Hahaha.

Ok, we talked to each other everyday, we shared our secrets, happiness and sadness, you took good care of me, you brought me along when you chill, you introduced me (as a friend of course) your buddies, treat me hoh liao, worried about me and so on until i couldnt finish counting it.

I dont see any reason why I cant grieve you like my bf. You were just someone like my bf + big brother maybe even more than that. I dont know how you thought but you were definitely someone meant for me. You meant something! And I believe I meant something too for you. HAHA!! Or else I wont be the only female in your favorite list other than your mother and sister (according to what you said). xD

I promised to draw you a birthday card, I'll draw it. I wont burn it ok! That's my efforts! Though it gonna send to no one, I'll keep it nicely. Ok la, I draw for you every year! Sui? xD See how long I can go. Hahaha.

What else I promised you? Owh you want me draw a card for you every month, honestly, I cant. Haha. I promise I'll miss you always instead ok. ;)


Haiyorr, one more thing ar Muntatt, kinda regret loh. I just took THREE pictures with you! =/ One of em we look damn funny summore. Should take more, damn.

See la, look at what you've done. Make me sad until like what. All of us! =(

You know ar, I really feel like you're still here whenever I recall the memories of us. I even went through our whole conversatin history and text messages (see lah how much I miss you), everything we talked really damn funny, crapped everything. Lmao!

To be honest, I still cant hold myself grieving the fact from accepting you are already gone. It's like I feel empty inside without you being here. Doubtless, you will always have a special place in my heart, ALWAYS. =)

Nah, here's a song for you. Listen carefully to the lyrics! Damn representative song!




Word cant express what you mean to me
It's kinda hard with you not around
Know you in heaven smiling down
Watching us while we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I will keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need to proceed
Strength I need to believe
I still cant believe you're gone
Give anything to hear half you breath
I know you still living your life, after death.


I'll be missing you,
We'll be missing you


By your Sunshine,
Jasmine ;)

Grossest post I ever done

Just watched some creepy, disgusting, scary videos on youtube. Trust me, it IS really really making you feel like WTF?!

What were that?

No. 1: Zits. Pimples and acnes poping out. Squeezing them and burst and all the yellowish things come out.

It was like... "Bbooshh"! Not a normal zit you know! You thought I'm talking about those normal pimples on normal people?! I mean most of the people wont get it lah. At least I never seen it happens on any of the people around me, so far. Those I watched were like big, big, HUGE like a monster. Those who can get these crazily gigantic pimples must be an unusual human being.

Hahaha!! I'm not purposely go search these kind of disgusting videos k. I forgot what I was watching and I accidentally, suddenly jumped into these creepy stuffs. Owh! I was watching Michael Jackson related videos! About the changes on his appearance. And I've no idea how I ended up watching those scary things. And when I started watching it, I couldnt stop and keep finding more to watch. -.- Really wtf.

But to be honest, it is really kinda enjoyable to see the zits pop out. Haha! Dont you think so?! When you're pressing a pimple on your face, especially those you waited for so long and the head finally came out? And when they FINALLY popped out, it's like winning something and you finally conquered it!

It can grows on any places on your body mannn. Face still the common wan la. Neck? Back of the ear?? On legs?! (I think on legs wan is not a zit already. -.- Maybe got infection but something la. Gross.)

One of the craziest.

Owh wait. I saw this from the comments.

"First of all, this IS NOT A ZIT. Its called a SEBACIOUS CYTST. This is not even the correct way to treat it. It must be removed surgically--removing both the inside cyts contents AND the wall around the cyst. If not it wll come back bigger and badder than ever. Furthermore, it wasn't even doen with sterile technique."

Alright. I dont know what is cyts. But still it is carzy. It's not popping out! It's like flowing out!! Fuck!

No. 2: Nipple piercing.

What the hell. Pierce on your nipple?! Both somemore!

I'd rather pierce on my nose, my eyebrows, my lips than piercing on my nipples. Imagine how pain it is. And does it gonna make you nipples look better?!

Guys I dont know lah. Some guys like to do something extraordinary which they think it is cool. Pierce on their dick also can. Tsk tsk. Girls also got lahh. But rare mahh.

Look at the reaction. -.- Hell pain wehh... Dont get down if you cant get to see her nipples. =P

Actually I'm not gonna pierce ANY other places on my body nor face in my life. I wont torture myself that way. Eww... and I'm pretty sure it is also not gonna make me look prettier.

No. 3: Laser tattoo removal.

It is ouch. I really tempted to do a tattoo. But I must tattoo it on somewhere I seldom observe such as my foot or back. Or else I'll soon get bored of it then regret for the rest of my life for tattooing it.

Dont tell me I can just laser it. NO! I heard that it's 10 times painer than getting a tattoo. Or even more. AND, I read it from a site said, a complete tattoo removal is not possible. Tattoos are meant to be permanent, so removing them is difficult. It has to depends on the size, location, the individual's ability to heal, how the tattoo was applied and how long it has been in place. For example, a tattoo applied by a more experienced artist may be maybe easier to remove since the pigment was evenly injected in the same level of the skin. New tattoos may also more difficult to remove than old ones. I wonder why. =/

How do lasers remove tattoo?? Go here . Fully explained.

Ouchhhh.

Owh and one thing! Guys if you wanna tattoo, I found a really awesome comment by dont know who. He said,

Makes me want to get a tattoo of a $100 dollar bill on my dick... That way I can....

1.)Put my money where her mouth is

2.)Play with my money

3.)Watch my money grow

4.)Legally pay for hookers

5.)Never have to make change

6.)Lose $100 in her then magically pull it out

7.)Never get robbed when I don't have an erection, because no one wants to steal a $1 bill. And Last, but certainly not least.

8.)My wife will no longer need to go out shopping... she can stay home and still blow a hundred bucks.

LMAO!!!

Impressive huh. Get one on your dick lah. =P

Toodle.

9th January

My heart is aching.

The pain was almost more than I could bear. It was too pain to send you off.

Everything is so unreal. Many past things have flashed on my mind and it's like you are still around me, somewhere near me.

It's like you will ring me up out of sudden at anytime and tell me about your stories again.

About where you went, who you met.

Then I'll ask, "Then what you did? Any 'chi kek' story??"

***** **** *** ** *

22nd September

Heh that was the first time we met. But we didnt really talk to each other yet lah that time. I think we started to talk in mid of October.

10th October, that was the second times we met. Haha. There are some pictures I took that day. I'm just refer to the date. You thought I really can rmb ar. I think started talking after that.

24th November, the first time you drunk called me. Nah I referred this to my phone.

4th December, the first time you came my house and pick me up to pg. Alllll the way from pg. And sent me back again alllllllll the way from pg. Damn kam dong. xD

Haiyo cant finish your stories lah. Though it was only how long we know each other? Sinceeee Sept 22th so it's... harrrrr 107 days only??? Wow! NYE was the 100th days we know each other weh! Yaiks. Should count it earlier. Since we were so friends, I know you'll buy some gifts for me. LOL!

How could be just only 107 days?? I feel like we already know for at least a year.

Dont worryyyy, I wont blow the gab. Secrets will remain as the secrets. I swear.

***** **** *** ** *

Oh yeah, your favorite line,

'eh sorry ar I was drunk so tipsy, I forget what I said already. What did I say last night? *blushhh*'

'Dont laugh at me k.'

'Forget it forget it!'

Tsk tsk. Sorry I always laugh at you for that. And then suan siao you kao kao. That's what you always complain to me 'cause you said you wont do that to me. And sorry I couldnt forget it, 'cause all of it already saved in my phone and msn. I think I wont gonna delete them also.

***** **** *** ** *

Thanks for calling me almost every night when I was in KL. It was always fun to talk with you even though I was sleeping.
Thanks for talking to me almost every night all the while. You were definitely someone special to me. No one could ever treat me as good as you did.


***** **** *** ** *

"Merry Christmas my sunshine."

That's what you said to me on X'mas eve. I dont know why but somehow I just felt so happy.
Now I feel so lucky that I ppk my old friends and celebrated X'mas eve with you though I still feel so bad to my them.
I wonder did you keep my full-of-efforts xmas card nicely. And the map which saved your life once!

Haha Look at my card and my map. I'm such an artist.

***** **** *** ** *

NYE, I bumped into you. I texted you and the first thing you said when you saw me,
"Orhhhhh come pg didnt call meeeeeeee.."
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Penang is full of your shadow.


Did you see how much we love you? I am really really so gonna miss you much. I meant it.

I just cant help myself to stop thinking about you and whenever I think of you, it tears me.

It's 6:08am, you supposed to be talking with me right now. Now I'm alone. Since now, I'll be alone in the middle of the night.

Nothing grieves me more, so just let me cry...

Until I get over it.

"You just faded away... You spread your wings, you had flown

Away to something unknown... Wish I could bring you back

You're always on my mind... About to year myself apart

You have your special place in my heart, always

.

Heaven is a place nearby

So I wont be so far away

And if you try and look for me

Maybe you'll find me someday

heaven is a place near by

So there's no need to say goodbye

I will trying not to cry

I'll always be by your side

.

And even when I go to sleep... I still can hear your voice

And those words... I never will forget"

With Loves.
Your Sunshine

7th January

It's 8:29pm.

I saw the first 'rest in peace' on your wall last night. I thought it was a joke. I even texted you asking why is everyone sending you these. I even expected you to call me back soon telling me it was some prank.

But of course, no one gonna reply me.

I cant describe how scared I was when I realized the condolences are increasing second by second the next day. I wanted to ask someone but I also realized I did not close with any of your friends.

My dearest friend, Muntatt, you will be always in my heart, and you're remembered.

Though it's only few months since we know each other, you were such a nice friend to me.
When you promised me something, you will always be the man of your word.
You came all the way from pg to fetch me just afraid I'll bored at home everyday.
I'll never forget all the outings with you. It was fun. And I fully enjoy it.
The X'mas eve, NYE that we just celebrated together 1 and 2 weeks ago.

I am really really happy to know you. Knowing you is one of the greatest thing I've done last year. And I'm so regret that I never let you know.

No matter how people think about, you were always my best friend, best brother.

Now, no one will call me in the middle of the night to whine about his problems.

No one will call me sunshine.

No one will be there in the middle of the night when I need someone to talk.

I'll never see your name appears online in my msn.

Muntatt, you told me that you already get used to talk with me everyday. And I told you, same goes to me.
But now you left me... You left us. How could you!

It is just too sudden and I still cant believe that I'll never see you anymore.

When I read the news of your accident, I cant stop crying. It is heartbreaking and unacceptable.

It must be so pain even the hospital just in front of you and still it couldnt save your life.

How I wish I was there with you even though there's nothing I can do.

I hope it was only just a dream.

It's 10:16pm. You will never know how hard for me to write it. This is what I never ever expect in this new year.

I love you, my friend.
Thanks for all the happiness you brought for me.

May your soul rest in peace in a better world...

I will miss you. We will miss you.
With Loves.

Gahh pg again, with my love

It's been awhile and here's Chloe my love and I again. Let's the pictures do the job. ;)

Had our brunch at Clinic (I dont really know what it called but you should know where is it xD)

Btw, this was the first time we dine there. Everything is like.... so so. And I actually dislike the chili sauce to be served with............ pump though that's what they are selling. It's odd.

Camwhoreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Ok, here comes the tutti frutti. Our virgin try of it.

I thought it should be.... more special! At least more than I thought!

'Cause that's what people keep talking about all the time, ermm previously. Can always see people crave for it on fb. All about tutti frutti tutti frutti tutti frutti.

I know it's something like ice cream which is apparently, and maybe taste like yogurt. And yea, it is JUST a frozen yogurt. I cant see what so attractive of it until everyone has to talk about it ALMOST EVERYDAY.

Now no more la. Get bored of it already I guess. Or they finally realized it is JUST a frozen yogurt?

But it's nothing bad to have it a try la. Her's our tutti frutti and they are kinda ugly. First time mah!

And gawdammit, look at the price.

A 20 bucks tutti frutti is really aching. -.-

I actually didnt realize it is count by gram. RM5.30/100g.

When we're paying only gotta know that. Ah hun's 16 bucks and mine 20!

TWENTY BUCKS FOR AN ICE CREAM!

Hun said, nvm la, since we never eat before, just ka ka kih. Then ka ka pay lah. -.-

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We went home quite early, around 4pm if I'm not mistaken 'cause we found nothing to do and no where to go.

Wanna go BF but it was raininggggg. =/

It was damn tiring. 'Cause I didnt sleep at all. And my back was pain like hell.

When I reached my bed, straight away lied down to rest my back, sleeeeeeeeeep and woke up at 2am. My time totally twisted now. Awesomeee.

It' 11am and I'm still awake. Damn.

Have a nice day people.

2011!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!

It's 6:37 in the morning. I'm still awake as usual. Blog as usual. But the difference is, I just came back from an outing. I went out since last year! From 2010 to 2011!

I went 69 last year. It was packed like hell. As usual, I met shitloads of friends. And one thing quite ashamed of is, that was the very first time of me going Mansion 69.

What?? It's kinda farrrrr and when it opens that time i already left TARC. Seldom have chance to go you know. =3

So it was fun. And it's quite awesome. Duhhh I dont need to explain how is it looks like i think.

Basically, technically, I ended my 2010 happily and started my 2011 happily. it must be a good start of the year i guess.

Okok. What's your new resolutions of 2011?? Wishes? Learn any lessons in 2010??

I learned loads of lessonssssss. Big girl already kkkkk. =P I might cant be smarter but at least wont to so stupid again.

Owh I just learned a lesson just now. Dont simply lie to your parents, they are wayyyyyyyy smarter than you thought! =S

New resolutionsssssssss... =/

Dont be so lifeless anymore.

Get a job.

Do something meaningful.

Find a bf, a long term one. xD

Be rich! (toldya I love money)

Slim down!

Wishessss huhhhhh....

GROW TALLER!

MONEY FLY TO ME THEMSELVES!

GOOD GUYS COME TO ME! LMAO!

Moustache go away. =(

Grow more hair (on head)! ='(

New year new life, the old quote.

Wish me lucks, and you too. =)

All the best! ♥

[updates] 
I met Muntatt there haha. I didnt saw him actually. My friend did, and he told me that Muntatt was there. So I texted MT asked where is him. The first thing he said when he saw me, "Ohhhhhhh come pg didnt call meeeeeee." And the next day night when we talked on the phone, he STILL complaining about it. LOL! 


I went to find him and I danced on the table. -.- 'Cause I was wearing slipper and it made me look damn short! So I just stepped on the table be the tallest. xD