Back from Kuantan!!!

Thank god the hotness there and the long journey didnt cause me dead. Stayed there for two days, I never eat a proper meal. What I ate is instant mee and bread omg. And also drank alot of water, must be 'caused of the weather, I felt thirsty all the time.

Since I stepped on the ground on Kuantan, no good thing happens. Guess what. So we were lost when we reached Kuantan as we already forgot the way to my aunt's house. Then we called my cousin come and lead us. We stopped the car at the roadside waited for him. We got out from the car and wait loh. Our car was park under a tree. And when I got down from the car, I heard loads of birds chirped and I saw loads of birdshits on the ground. Then I know, it's freaing dangerous to stand under the tree. So I walked away.

After awhile, I realized I left my phone in the car, so I walked back to the car to get my phone. AND SHIT HAPPENED!

That was really SHIT! ON MY HEAD! That was SO EW! My first gift at Kuantan.


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Anyway, I was waken up by a call at 11:13am from Northam Hotel, telling me that... the manager is satisfied with my attitude (should be something like that) and I GOT THE JOB!!!!! But I still dont know what I'm gonna do. Gonna go for another interview to talk about it. Haha!

If everything goes smoothly, I got the job, then I'VE TO FIND PLACE TO STAY IN PG ALREADY!

Asking in advanced, WHO NEEDS A HOUSEMATE???  Or ANY PLACE TO STAY???? xDDD

I feel so excited!

Kuantan *face palm*

Currently staying at my aunt's house using my cousin brother's Mac. Thought I can tahan until go home to touch my laptop but cannot.

Despite the hotness, here got no wifi. No wifi means boring.

Gah I dont know what to write! The hotness is disturbing my brain's system and it cant spin nicely. You know how hot it is?! No! You wont know! It is freakingly hot and like no word could describes how hot it is. Is the weather actually like that or here is really hotter than Penang??! Or 'cause I seldom expose to the sunlight? I all the while feel myself sticky no matter how often I bath. Plus here got no air-con. The house is hot, the room is hot, everywhere is hot.

HOTTTTTT!

Anyway, my parents and I are here 'cause we're coming to visit my aunt, which is my dad's eldest sister. She's fell sick (quite serious I think). I'm not sure what's the sickness but I heard something about too much calcium in the blood (I know it's not a correct way to say that -.-). So apparently she's staying in the hospital.

Visited her today. She looks so weak! Sha cant talk properly 'cause she feels suffering whenever she eats, sit up and talk. =( Though it's been so long since last time I seen her, I still can realise the obvious physically changes. She's is so thin now and she cant even remember us from the first sight even my dad told her who are we. But she remember it later lah.

Guess she cant accept it and she realised how weak she is that she cant even remember her own brother, she started to say something like going to my my grandma (already passed away). My mum comforted her said it's reasonable that she cant remember us 'cause long time never see us already. 10 years I think?

She some more said feel so sorry to us 'cause we come all the way from pg to visit her but she cant cook us a meal. Awww. =( No such thing my dear aunt!

Come to think of it, my aunt is actually quite.... kelian. 'Cause she's living alone. Her husband passed away years ago, both of her sons are working and staying outside at JB and Sg. Imagine an old woman living alone here. Everyday wake up no one talk to her, she has to cook herself, eat alone. And what she can do after b'fast? Sit in the living room, watch the tv show alone. No transportation. From what I know, she cant even walk like a normal people apparently she cant ride a bicycle. =(

I think she got friends here lah, stay here for so long already but how she goes out to find em? How she goes to the market?? The market is like so far! Takkan walk there meh. Before her husband passed away still got him ride her there but now...

Mum said if my aunt wants, she can come to stay with my grandma also. There got more people and she wont get bored. =D But dont know she wants or not. =/

But luckily her son, my cousin brother already resigned and came back to take care of her.

Anyway, still, we're leaving tomorrow evening. Gonna say bye bye to her. =(

Da gu! Hope you'll get well soon and come pg to stay with us!

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I've done a stupid thing. I shouldnt be such a big mouth on something which is not related to me at all. Omg I'm so regretful. Okay maybe I thought it was a tit bits related with me. Sorry for being such a bitch... =(

Chao!

Busy month!

Hm feel like updating something but I dont know what to write. Sorry I'm being so lifeless. -.-

Okay, I'm gonna be so busy in the coming two weeks. First off, I've to attend ex-boyfriend's birthday party tomorrow night. Some of my friends asked, not awkward meh? Hm... Nope. It's been almost a year since we broke up, awkward what?? And we actually bumped into each other quite a lot of times in the club. Some of my friends said, horrrrrrr still meet up with your ex harrrrr. I was like why not? I'm not avoiding him also. But I do hate him sometimes.

I'm just kidding haha.

Okay, during the party, I might drop by my friends' place to catch up with em which I didnt see for some times. Then back to the party or maybe straight away go home. 'Cause I got curfew! I promised my mum I'll be home by 2:30am. But I'm not sure whether it's means I've to leave at 2:30am or I've to reach home at 2:30am. Confusing. Hahaha! Okay, bet I'd better be reaching home by 2:30m. xD

Then the next day, which is Sunday, my family and I are going to Kuatan, Pahang, to visit my aunt for I think around three days. She's fell sick heavily now. =( Hope she'll get well soon. My bestie, Winnie is studying there (if I'm not mistaken lol), if it's possible, I'll drop by to see her as well.

Mum gonna drive us there. It's really a freaking long journey... =( I said I can help her to drive few hours but she said if I drive she's even worries about our safety. Aw my driving skill is not that badddddd. xD I swear! Okay, maybe I banged a bus before, and I banged a Hylux before but it was like year ago, I'm improved now!

After we came back from Kuantan, mum and I are going S'pore with two of my cousins along. If you're wondering, we're just go for fun.

Busy right! But then I'm totally.... nothing to do already after coing back from Sg. Then it's time to think about my future. My dad is gonna hates me more if I keep wasting his money, my mum doesnt care though. I mean doesnt care THAT much lah.

Owh! And haha! I've to attend another friend's birthday party in the end of the month of May. He said he's gonna throw his party at KL and I'll go by his car, I'm not sure. Haha.

THEN it's time to think about my future LOL! Anyone got job to introduce me??? Or who wanna hire me??? I think I can be a brilliant secretary! Hahaha!! I'm a quick learner, I'm sure I'll be a good worker. xD Who wanna hire meeeeeee?

Talk about job... the interview I went last week, I think they are not hiring me... T.T 'cause I didnt receive anything from them whether I'm hired or not..... WHYYYYYYYYYYYY??? I thought they kinda like me.... Hahahaha!! Nvm, I find other jobs! Hmph! ;(

Toodle!

Omg the story behind a fairytale

I'm pretty sure most of the kids or teens around my age know the Japanese manga artist, Hayao Miyazaki (宫崎 骏). He written and directed a lot of popular anime feature films such as

Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind, 1984 film (风之谷)
Castle in the Sky, 1986 film (天空之城)
Kiki's Delivery Service, 1989 film (魔女宅急变)
Princess Mononoke, 1997 film (幽灵公主)
Spirited Away, 2001 film (千与千寻的神隐)  -favorite!
The Cat Returns, 2002 film (猫的报恩)  -favorite!
Howl's Moving Castle, 2004 film (哈尔的移动之城)  -favorite!
Ponyo, 2008 film
...
okay and so on. And another one of my favorite is My Neighbor Totoro, 1988 film (龙猫). Until now, whenever I see the poles it will still reminds me of the Catbus running on the wire. xD

My Neighbor Totoro is mainly talking about two sisters, Satsuki and Mei, their story after moving into an old house in rural Japan to be closer tot he hospital where their mother is recovering from an unnamed, long tern illness. 

One day, while Mei is playing outside, she saw two white rabbit-like ears in the grass. She follows the ears who then lead her through a briar patch and into the hollow of a large Camphor tree. She meets and befriends a large version of the same kind of spirit, which identified themselves by a series of roars that she interprets as "Totoro". Her father ater tells her that this is the "keeper of the forest".
Satsuki finds out that the planned visit by their mother has to be postponed because of a setback in her treatment. She tells Mei about it but you know, kids are all the same. Mei cannot accept it and starts to cry (that's why I hate kids -.-). Frustrated and frightened, Satsuki yells at Mei and stomps away. Mei believing that her mother can be cured by healthy food, sets off on foot to the hospital with an ear of corn.

Her disappearance prompts Satsuki and neighbors to search for her; eventually, Satsuki returns in desperation to the Camphor tree and pleads for Totoro's help. The Catbus carries her to Mei and then whisks her and Satsuki over the countryside to see their mother in the hospital.  They perch in a tree outside, overhearing the conversation between their parents and discovering that she has been kept in hospital by a minor cold and is otherwise doing well. 


So basically the whole story is like kinda warm and with a happy ending. And of course I love this anime. It's like one of the best anime ever made! If you love it like I do, what I'm gonna say are so gonna ruin your Totoro in your heart!


Do you know there's a running theory about this fairy tale? The theory is that Totoro is actually the god of death, the Catbus is actually a tool of bringing the spirits away, and Mei is actually dead while the villagers found one side of her shoe in the pond, she is drowned.


Okay I found an article about it from a website, HERE, in mandarin btw. 


It says the story after realizing Mei's shoe in the pond, the sisters have no shadow after all. Well. 'cause of these creepy stuff, I decided to watch it again and I watched. I found it true that the sisters really dont have shadow after that, but the problem is, I also realized.... everyone got no shadow after that. -.- I think Miyazaki was just forgot or lazy to draw their shadows.


I did some research. Some people believe in it, some people dont. 

It's deliberate. In the movie they make clear that only kids can see Totoro, because they are innocent. When kids see the movie, they believe in a happy ending because they are innocent. We find a darker meaning because we are adults. We no longer "see" Totoro. The movie effectively show us we have lost our innocence. It's completely masterful.

Some people do, however, believe that this film incorporates death.

1. The mother has tuberculosis, which is considerably fatal even under the best care, so the family moving to the country is mostly for the mother to die in a peaceful place.
2. The children do not understand death, so their process in coping with their mother's absence is met through the spirits they encounter, such as the makuro-kurosuke and Totoro (both of whom are said to gather where death is near, such as in old, crumbling houses, or those who are touched by death). They are spirits, after all - where else would they come from but the spirit world?
3. The Cat-Bus could be seen as a ferry to the spirit world, as it travels invisibly in the wind.
4. The color palettes do change for Satsuki and Mei once they reunite, becoming paler and ghost-like.
5. Once they do reunite, they go to see their mother, but only their mother notices them as she is touched by death. The film ends with them riding away together in the Cat-Bus (the end credit imagery could be seen as memories of their lives, or all of them reuniting in the spirit world).
6. Kanta, the neighbor boy, is never shown experiencing the spirits, even though the Grandmother says that only children can see these spirits.
7. When Satsuki enter the Cat-Bus looking for Mei, one of the destination options on the bus's display-board is written as "Grave" "Road", hinting that Mei drowned.

In my opinion, I think 7th is kinda convincing. =S 'Cause I realized that too. Ghibli


This blog explains it well, (MUST READ if you're really find it interesting)


my.opera.com/sukekomashi-gaijin/blog/tonari-no-totoro


 They believe the real story comes from the history of the Sayama incident (狭山事件 sayama jiken). There seem to be too many coincidences between the Sayama incident and this anime to ignore.

The Sayama incident occured in May 1963. It's quite an important case for discrimination in Japan. The case goes that one day, in Sayama (in Saitama prefecture), a young girl was kidnapped for ransom, raped and then murdered. Her older sister apparently found her body, but was so traumatized by it, when asked what she had seen, she merely said "I met a large Tanuki (looks like a racoon)" and "I saw a cat monster." Sound familiar? Anyway, the older sister later commited suicide.

This picture really freaks me out. Look at the words written on the box at the back is 狭山茶 sayamacha or Sayama tea. Creepy or not?!? 


And the Sayama incident took place in May, the sisters' names in the anime are Satsuki (May in Japanese) and Mei (May in English). Besides, the (real incident's) sisters were in fact from a single-parent family (mother died of illness).


Everything I read from the link above is like totally omfg. And now I found this anime is really "chim". 


Anyway, however, I find it very interesting to know though it was really kinda creepy. It is still nice to have another way to interpret my favorite anime in my childhood. And it'll still be my cutest Totoro! Pardon me for the picture below. LOL!

No matter how many times I see it, this picture always freaks me out. Dang.

[Updates]
Haha, so the Sayama incident turns out another story. I mean they are totally irrelevant.

HERE's the real story of the Sayama incident.

Have fun reading!

You know what I hate the most? I think I blogged about it before. I hate when I call someone, when I text someone, and  for whatever reason that person didnt reply. Okay I understand that not everyone is as free as me, I understand that people might be busy or yea that's not a right time to pick up my call or reply my text. But cant you call me back when you free? Cant you reply me when you free??

And okay! I also understand people are busy and they might forgot that someone called/texted them, that's why they didnt reply anything. Trust me, I thoroughly understand it. But you know what, it is also clearly show one fact that I am not important enough to let you remember I was looking for you. Or maybe, you just dont wanna talk to me, 'cause you dont even take me as your friend.

It maybe doesnt seem like a big deal, but I dont know why I just cant stand it. I can understand people cant reply me immediately but I cant understand why they cant reply me later when they are free. It irritates me every single time.

For example, some guys get mad when people touch their hair when I think it IS NOT a big deal at all. Or some girls they cant take it when people criticize on their taste of choices when I think it IS NOT a big deal too 'cause I know everyone got different taste. It's like a ......err landmine, nothing happen if you didnt step  on it. But if you stepped on it, you die. Okay wont die, something's gonna happen however.

Whereas I cant blame it 'cause I know I'm in the wrong as well. I dont reply people's message sometimes and I am also purposely dont pick up people's call sometimes. Because I dont want to talk to them. So it's the same lah, when you're doing something mean, people can do the same to you as well. =/

I'm such a selfish brat, I cant take it but at the same time I'm doing it to others.

Dang, done whining. Gotta go take a bath and sleep. Toodle!

Job interview Part 2!

I still havent tell you guys how about my job interview right?? It's great! =D To those who wished my luck, thank you thank you. It worked! xD

I realized I'm quite independant loh. I didnt prepape anything like my resume. When I reached there I straight away call the person, "Hello, Mr. Charles right? I come for the interview." Then out of sudden I'm already in the room for the interview, I dont even know what job I'm interview for.  

Filled up the application form, interviewers came. Everything went well! I thought I'll be so panic but in fact, when I came out from my car, I was thinking... hm I'm already, nothing to afraid of already. Just do it! 

And I did it!!! Okay lah I dont know whether they are hiring me or not lah, just wait just wait...

I'm so scareddddd! If I'm hired means I've to stay in pg again... ALONE!!! T.T I'm gonna eat alone, sleep alone (wait.. that's what I'm doing everyday), no washing machine, no microwave, no air-cond, no wi-fi, no one talk to me at home, no parents around enjoining me to shower and eat... omgomg.

OH GOSH! I dont know how to pay water and electric bills!! I'm gonna pay all the expenses myself!*panic panic headache headache

(Talk like I never stay in Penang before but different mah! Last time I stayed with my friends and classmates, they did all the things... sigh)

Heh wait, maybe they are not hiring. Hehehe.

But I'm broke already lah!!! No money d!! =( Somehow I wanna start working, somehow I'm scared of it. Cilaka. I hate the feeling of dilemma.

Nah Louis thor tao kia! You said you gonna teman me for dinner and supper wan har! Remember what you said! xD

Just let it be. Just let it be. Everything is gonna be alright!