Whiny whiny

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. It's been awhile. What I can blog about now?

Actually I can talk something about my job but NO. My boss is aware of my blog. I cant simply write stuffs here. Argh. Never ever talk bad about your boss or or job on the internet. NEVER! You wouldn't know what will happen. Jesus.

Chinese New Year is coming soon. Excited!

Anyway, thought of something to talk about now.

Used to say, texting is my number one most hated thing. Now it's changed.

 Stand me up WITHOUT TELLING ME FIRST.

That is reaaaaaaaaaaally really rude.

So last night after I went home from office, I stayed at home watching dramas. A friend called. Ask me out for dinner. Since I still didnt have my dinner and was starving, I asked where, who else and what time we're going. He said whatever place, but I have to drive. Wtf? YOU asked me out for dinner and you want ME to fetch you? Not that I cannot fetch you, but it sounds like you just want me to drive you out for food. I said no, nvm already. I was pretty lazy to drive at night frankly. Then he said or he asked another friend to drive. Ok, so I asked him what time are we going?

He cant give me a specific time. He said still need to wait the friend to bath bla bla bla. Then I said please quickly as I was really really hungry already. And ok, we hung up. Then waiting while watching drama. Until I finished the episode they STILL havent call me yet. It's like around 45 mins. Wtf not enough time to shower meh?! What are you brushing?!?

That was so irritating. Wanna ask people out then you shouldnt be late lah! Why should I starving myself just to wait for you?! Okay, finally he called again. I didnt know wtf he was talking. At all. All I heard is he said he was waiting outside already. I AM SURE HE DIDN'T SAY THE FRIEND IS NOT COMING. So I went out. Looking for car, but I only saw a motorbike. o.0 I was like what dafuq? You expect me to ride on that?

Okay, I didnt mean anything by saying. Despise or what, no. I have an issue on riding motorbike. I can only ride when that's a girl fetching me, or I'm driving. Even that was my dad, I also have to think first.

Of course I sat on a guy's motorbike before, but that was really making me uncomfortable. I sat very far apart from his body, to avoid the skin-ship. Unless that was my bf lah. -.-

Back to the story, he said the friend is not coming d lah, hate people ppk him la this and that. I was really losing my patience already. Then I asked what now?? He said he fetch me with his bike go out and eat, wihtout helmet. ..................Are you fucking kidding me? You really think I'll climb up your bike, dont you?

I told him dont need already. I dont want to ride motorbike, just eat at the food court nearby my house will do. He didnt want! He said there got nothing to eat and asked me where's my car.

Cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeebyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Ended up he just want me to drive lah. Was kinda pissed off and scolded, 'I told you I dont wanna drive! And you didn't tell me earlier now I need to go up again to get my car key!'

He aware of my anger and compromised to eat at the food court. He asked me to sit on his bike, I refused. I'd walk there by myself.

I think my refusal had pissed him off like didn't give him face or what. When he left he still mumbled something, what I didnt say earlier yada yada. Who daqud didnt say earlier?!

But I just ignored him lah. Was damn hungry already so I just walked to the food court and eat. He ended up didnt show up also.

What kind of person is that? Tsk.

BASTARD!

Braces!

Look! I just got my braces today!



It took like like about 15 minutes to do the upper part! But lower part havent done yet.

It is so painful as it's pulling my teeth inside. I cant even talk properly 'cause whenever I touch my teeth, and of course I cant bite, it cracks my stomach. I mean... SO PAINFUL! But awwwwwwwww I missed the feeling! xD

Guess I've to drink porridge in the coming few days. Pfft.


PAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

I want to be better...

I'm satisfied with what I have now but somehow I'm not really into myself. There are loads of imperfections that I hate about myself. Like my laziness, my height, my weight, my hair blah blah blah. I know you may think that I'm asking too much, I'm so shallow, or you may think I'm already have everything, nothing I need to worry about, I should appreciate... WHATEVER. They seem tiny but when they altogether it becomes big.

So no, if I wanna be better. The 'better' here I'm saying as in everything. Like overall. Anything. If I wanna be better, there are loads of things I need to do.

First off, my teeth need to be fixed. I hate my front teeth! I hate the big gap between my bunny tooth! It used to be perfect when I just took out my braces.

Evidence!


But as the time goes, the gap became bigger and bigger. I HATE IT! Am I the only one? I think my face or my mouth look smaller without the gap. And absolutely prettier. RIGHT?! I definitely need to get braces again but before this I need to earn some money first. I know I can get it from parents but... I wanna do it with my own effort...

I'm too short. Even though there are loads of my friends tell me that my height is fine as a girl. Really?! No no I dont think so. I know I'm not the shortest 'cause those can be shorter than me, they are just TOO short.   I want to be much much taller than I am. Like at least 15cm more. But anyway, since there's nothing I can do to help my height anymore, I would like to put on some effort to make myself thinner/slimmer.

One of the reason I hate being short. It's damn noticeable even though I just 1kg. So since I cant change my height, I can always be slimmer to make myself looks taller. Not gonna tell what's my weight but losing 5kg is my target.

I want to be prettier. I'm serious.

I dont have a very pretty personality though. =/ Well I think it's fine. I'll try to be more friendly.

About my laziness..... I need to get rid of it. I am always too lazy to do anything. Not something to proud of.

I hate the scars on my thighs. Scars of the scratches from myself and cats, some of em I dont even know how are they on my thighs wth. =/ Should buy some skincare products for it hm.

How to grow more hair?! Or prevent hair fall?! I'm so worried I'm gonna be bald soon. =S

If I can really get rid of all these, I could call myself perfect! Of course, in my own definition of perfection.

Anyway, I've gotta buzz off. Needa wake up early in the morning tomorrow. Pfft.

Toodle!

Omg omg omg omg. I'M SO BORED. For whatever reason, am currently stuck at KL, my friend's place, with bunch of my friends. Supposed to be at home now, laying on my comfy bed, enjoying my cozy air-con. 

For the freaking whole day, I almost killed my friend's iPad. Which is sad. And look, my phone is totally dead. Not running out of battery, it just... boosh, spoiled for no reason. I swear I didnt drop it on the floor or something! At least didnt for these two days. Whatever, mum said I can get a new one now. C6 you're sucks! 

Okay, so without phone, I'm like totally lose all connections from outside. Well not totally lose 'cause I still getta blog here, thank God. But I just feel so bored when my phone is being silent for such a long time! Almost two days already!

And I hate my friends. They are talking something secretly, aite talking about someone and they didnt wanna tell me. I feel abandoned. WHATEVER LAH FINE FINE FINE FINE! Like I really wanna know! Cuss. I feel so beh syiok now! De-friend ALL OF YOU! Well, TWO OF YOU!!!

AND THEY EAT THE WHOLE DAY!

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! 

IM FREAKING EFFINGLY BORED!!! 

Pffffft. Ranting!

People are keep on texting me recently and I'm so broke now! I dont even dare to count how much I have been spend on my phone's credit this month. I'm not gonna reply ANYONE OF YOU! Unless you gonna sponsor me money. Jeez. And I remember I said I hate SMS, didnt I?

Aite, it's not even your fault I know. I mean not my friends' fault. =/ I just got too much friends. LOL!

Anyway yea, I think I should cut down a bit on it. I felt guilty to spend so much on texting people, though I'm spending my own money now. But hey! I'm gonna be jobless soon!

Owh talk about job, I wrote my resignation letter today. Supposed to send it to HR today but our HR manager wanted me to hold it back for few days first 'cause she asked if I wanna change to another department since I told her that the one I'm currently in was way too boring. (Yea I actually said that)

I SHOULD'VE JUST GIVE HER MY RESIGNATION LETTER! 'Cause the one month notice is counts on the date I give her the letter, I thought it was count on the date I let her know I'm resigning. =/ See, now I've to work one day more. Mum is gonna kill me. She wanted me to stop working immediately but I said I wanna work until the end of month so I can get my pay.

I still have no idea why she wanted me to quit that job so much except she missed me a lot? I'm finally earning money by my own and finally not spending her money anymore. Aint it something great and... should be supported? And why would she wants me to quit??

Some people supported me to leave 'cause they think it's really a waste of time to work there, as a 21 year old teen. Indeed. Some people disagree 'cause they just want me there. I mean, not really want me or need me lah. Just like erm jealous that I dont need to work or even worry if I found the new job. I'm just kidding.

I really hate people telling me what should I do. I mean hell yea I know what should I do wtf. And I've heard enough. I dont need your lectures or stupid advises at all. Am not trying to be mean, and I know they are try to be nice or express their concerns but really, save it to someone else. I knew what you gonna say when I said I'm not working. I knew what's the next line when I tell you I'm gonna quit my job. Urgh.

And I HATE people telling me 'owh you should proceed further, you're young.' (Fine if you're so much elder than me). I know I'm young and I know I should. Stop telling me can? When I'm being quiet at things you say, can you keep your mouth shut as well?

One of the masseur knows I'm resigning and she was like "Huh?! Why?? Why quit? Xiao wan ar? You found a new job already me? What you wanna do at home? You thought how long you still can spend your parents money?" Lema I never say like I'm gonna be jobless forever also. And you dont know how it feels to be so boring out here, you dont know how I feel, you dont know what's the real reason so just STFU. Then I got annoyed and I said, 'I'm not sure, they are just rich enough'. 

I NOTICED I KEEP ON RANTING RECENTLY! I'm seriously acting like a grumpy granny wtf?! Must because of the job! (and now I'm blaming it all on my job jeez)

I'm being so offensive recently and I dont know why. An unlucky new friend said the line I hate the most to me and I replied him 'Dont tell me what should I do, save it to someone else.' and I never got his message ever since. LOL! Bet it was too unfriendly to a new friend.

Anyway, I wasnt really angry at friends keep texting me. I was just.... dont know what should I do and I really dont like keep on texting the whole day. My thumbs need some rest. Please forgive me if I didnt reply you! I really need to cut down now! xD I'd rather save that money up to buy something I can see and touch. But you're still welcomed to text me, I'm reading em. Seldom reply though. LOL!

Rubella (German Measles)

I've been sick at home for few days. I'm not sure what I got, rashes are all over both of my whole hands and  legs. But I think it's not a rashes, so I shouldnt call it a rashes. =/ Dad said it's german measles. But how the hell I got it?! What's the cause of it?! Consulted the doctor and he said no big deal, gave me some cream to wipe on it. But it seems doesnt work. =/

Dont really know how I got it. But it started after I came back from the sauna with mum. And it gone worse the next day.

It's so itchy but I cant scratch it 'cause it's painful! =(

And the stupid colleague, told her I cant be able to work today as well. And look what she said to a patient.

"why u always take mc! you know I not free today! I very tension to u! I dont care you have come to day!" 

Wth, it's not like I purposely dont wanna go work that's why keep on mc. Lema. And what's 'very tension to you' supposed to mean?

Then I sent her a picture of my legs, ask her kindly look at my skin, does she really think I was lying about my sickness. And she just STFU after that. Tsk.

I wanna show y'all the pictures of it but I dont know why my laptop just cant detect the memory card of my camera. So I cant show it. =/ But you can google search german measles, it looks something like that but not that serious, yet? LOL.


Yea something exactly like this.

So itchy!

But still very tulan at what my colleague said to me. What can I do if you're not free. Sorry lah, blame my german measles lah. Xiao ca bo. Look who will be damn happy, and even got MORE free times if I resign.

Owh and tell you a good news, 'cause I'm gonna work until the end of July only. LAUGH LAH! I KNOW YOU'LL BE DAMN HAPPY.

Hhahahah~~~

Btw, now only I know German measles also known as rubella. It sounds like a beautiful name but it's in fact a virus. =S

The rubella rash can look like many other viral rashes. It appears as either pink or light red spots, which may merge to form evenly colored patches. The rash can itch and lasts up to 3 days. As the rash clears, the affected skin occasionally sheds in very fine flakes. 

Other symptoms of rubella (these are more common in teens and adults) can include headache, loss of appetite, mild conjunctivitis(inflammation of the lining of the eyelids and eyeballs), a stuffy or runny nose, swollen lymph nodes in other parts of the body, and pain and swelling in the joints (especially in young women). Many people with rubella have few or no symptoms.

Source: http://kidshealth.org/parent/infections/skin/german_measles.html#


But amongst all those symptoms, I only got  errr headache? OWH! And swollen lymph nodes! Luckily my eyelids and eyeballs didnt infected... else it gonna make me looks creepy and scary. Must be rubella already lah!! =/

Lasts up to three days huh...

FUCK YEA.

Guys guys! I'm kinda excited recently, guess what's the reason! xD

Anyway, I'm feeling so frustrated 'cause I'm gonna work full day tomorrow. There was an incident happened yesterday and it making me so...feel like quitting the job immediately.

There's a very pretentious guy at my work place. He's fine actually when nothing's happen. But I do really think he got something wrong in his brain. He always freaking thought he's freaking smart or I'd say he thought he's the smartest ass in the world. Dang and he's JUST a cleaner.

Well look, I didnt despise his job or what. In fact, he knows more than I do about my job 'cause he has been working there for freaking seven years. Certainly he knows more about the job. But still, his position is lower than me 'cause he's a foreign worker, it makes it cant be an official staff of the hotel. Anyway, as what he told since the very first day I start working, ask him if there's anything I dont understand. So I did.

Owh there's once. Okay, arranging masseurs turns is part of my job, and it's kinda important (to the masseurs). It's in chronological sequence, who comes first who will be the first. And  It's totally no big deal as it's an easy job. But when some customers requested some certain masseurs, then it's different story. Which mean I've to skip sequence and put that requested masseur first. Wait, it's kinda hard to explain like this. Okay diagram 1.

For example,


A ➧ B ➧ C ➧ D ➧ E

If customer requested C to do him massage;

C ➧ A ➧ B ➧ D ➧ E

And when C is done;

A ➧ B ➧ D ➧ E ➧ C

Understandable right?

So that day, there came two customers together, Mr. X and Mr. Y. They requested masseurs A and B respectively. But Mr. X said he's gonna smoke first, so Mr. Y will be go in first, which is also means B will be go in first than A. (omg I feel so complicated now)

So the sequence now will be

B ➧ A ➧ C ➧ D ➧ E

After 5 mins, when Mr. X done smoking, it's A's turn. Then I was thinking, since it's only 5 mins difference, should I just follow the usual sequence or skip A's turn. I wasnt sure about. Since that plonker got SEVEN YEARS experiences more than me, I think I should ask him what should I do now, or so called suggestion. And he told me arrange the sequence by who goes in first, so means I've to skip A's turn and I did.

After that, A was curious why I got her turn skipped. I was panic, 'cause she sounds like she's gonna scold me so I asked help from that plonker how should I tell em the whole thing. Guess what he said when I really need his help.

"Follow your own rules next time, dont ask me."

Wtf, it's not like I'm gonna blame him everything 'cause he told me to do so. I was just asking what should I do now and that freaking asshole damn scared that I'm gonna drag him into the trouble and pushed everything away. Now I know what kind of person you are.

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THIS is still not the reason I'm so pissed last two days.

Our spa used to have foot reflexology but we dont provide that service already. Anyway, it's still printed on the brochure. Every time the customers ask about it, I've to turn them down 'cause we dont do it anymore. Then they will complain something like why is it still on the brochure, we should remove it bla bla bla.

So I paste a tape on to cover it up. Then the plonker saw it and asked who did it. Well I did. He said cannot paste like this. So I asked why. Reasonable right?! Since we dont do it anymore why cant I just cover it up?! FINE if I cant, you should at least tell me WHY CANT.

Look what he said to me with his broken Malay.


"Now you're teaching me or I'm teaching you? When I tell you what to do dont ask me why why why."


FUCKER! %&(&$@@!#$%

Omg I was so agitated and am SO agitated. I'm holding back so hard to prevent myself from writing 'chee bye' as it's too rude (tho I used it before and I know it's really a bad word). BUT THAT WAS SO CHEE BYE! LEMA! 

WHEN I FREAKING ASK WHY, I EXPECT YOUR FUCKING EXPLANATION. BECAUSE IT MEANS I DONT KNOW! 

He's really fucking thought he's the smartest ass in the world. PLEASE, LOOK AT YOUR DICKFACE! 

"when I tell you what to do dont ask me why"  That is such an uncivilized thinking! Or their race are actually born that way?! (I know I know, calling someone dickface isnt something so civilized as well). And you say I'm stupid? Look who's the no-brainer.

Who do you think you are to expect me obey everything you say. Dream it dickface. 

Time to update!

I realized that I'm being so lifeless again recently. Work, drink, sleep, work, drink, sleep, EVERYDAY. Owh well I think all workers are having the same life I'm having. But I realized my job is kinda a waste of my time. It's too relaxing! It's extremely relaxing like it's a job for old people, no pressure, comfy working area.

I'm a teenager! Well guess it's time to look for my next job.

Also, I noticed I've been complaining a lot recently. Dang! Is my life too easy?! -.- I'm behaving like a grumpy granny. Geez.

I wonder why my life is so stress-less. Is that a good thing? for a teenager like me?

Owh wait, there's one thing I'm worrying about. I grew a corn on my foot. I didnt tell 'cause I think it's gross. Ew. But after I figured out it's merely because of frictions caused by your shoes, it makes it sounds better. But still gross! It's been almost four weeks! I doubted is it even a corn. =S

EwEwEwEw!

Aite forget about it.

Actually I dont know what else I can talk about now. So I shall blog again later when I got something in my mind. Woots!

Toodle!

Take for granted

I used to think, it's perfectly alright to take your best friends for granted, because they are your best friends. With them, I can say everything in my mind, agree, disagree like or dislike. Even though sometimes when I said something mean, I take it for granted that they WILL understand, I WAS JOKING.

"How do you think about this dress?" Best friend asked.


"I dont know, I dont like it. It's perfect for you if you're 70."

Wait, it wasnt really mean.

Anyway, so aint best friends are someone you can say everything with? Just because you're my best friend I feel comfortable to say what I want. You dont expect me to burst everything out to an ordinary friend, right? Best friend knows when I'm being serious, when I'm telling a joke, I didnt ask for too much to think that way right?

There's a gang of best friends I've been mixing with since primary school. They give me good advises, they know my joke, they'll be here when I need helps with no string attached, they can fully accept the way I am - the REAL me. I really feel perfectly comfortable to be with them, sincerely. And I love them.

REAL me give REAL comments, speak REAL words which are happens to be offensive to those who dont know me or not closed with me. That's why I hard to get a real friend who understand me, and once I take you as my real friend, it's really hard for me to get closed with other people. I think I'm weird.

There's an incident happened months ago. Though it's been awhile, it still runs in my mind over and over again.  It's actually not a big deal but I just cant get through of it.

I said something... bad about my bestie's bf and she got mad at me. Like real mad. I SWEAR I WAS JUST KIDDING, I dont mean it and I really said it in a joking way. ...This is how it happened... We were in the car, I was holding her handphone, there came her bf's call, his grimaced face popped out and I said..........
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'Yer why your bf so yong soi (ugly) wan?'
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Was that too much? I dont know, if I was her I wont be so mad, in fact I'll say 'Yea I think so' and laugh together with her. Because I know she didnt meant it, and that was apparently a joke after all. I cant think for whatever reason she can be so mad at me about it.

She showed me the face after that. And when I asked her something she either keeps quiet or answer me rudely. Well I'm not a piece of wood, certainly I realized something is going wrong.

"Are you mad at me...?" I asked timidly.

"Everyone has their limit." She said sternly.


I know but I was so hurt! D= But I realized it was my fault to say that so I apologized. And she accepted it. Then we're good again. =D

However, what I feel hurt is... she cant take the way I am... I mean...I mean she should know I was just kidding! Right...? ...Or it's a no-no/taboo to talk about people's bf/gf even though that's your bestie? Is that really a forbidden?

Anyway, I'm not accusing her of not understanding my joke or whatever. But this incident made me think again, should or should not take your best friends for granted. I used to think it's perfectly alright to do that as they are your best friends. But now I'm confused. As what she said, everyone has their limits after all...

Maybe we just should not take anyone for granted except your parents?

I've been hesitating should I write it out, as that's really a big chance she will know I'm talking about her here and I really afraid it gonna affects our friendship, THAT is really what I DONT WANT it happens AT ALL. But it really stuck in my mind ever since. I'd feel better to say it out.


***Dear Love,


If you're reading this, for whatever reason PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont get mad (you know I'm really scared of that). =( 


I love you! You know I really do! For now, for tomorrow, forever! 

X.o.x.o.

Kill me please.

I cried the all night long, cant sleep at all 'cause of the fucking toothache. It's swollen until I cant even close my mouth as it is bloodily painful. Like I'd rather die. Even my ear is pain inside. How I wish I can chop off half of my face now and the fucking tooth. Once the dentist pull it out, I swear I'm gonna crash it with hammer into powdery.

And all the cb people, it's like damn obviously I've been talking about my toothache since the fucking last night, now still got people ask me 'what happened omg'. Cheebye you cant read english is it? Many updates in a row I'm ranting about my toothache and you still fucking ask me what happened. Ask ask ask every time I posted something you ask what has happened, you just cant read yourself right.

Fuck I'm so peh chek with all the tiny stuffs.

I popped all kind of medicine it says it would relieve the pain, all not working AT ALL.

ARGHHHHHHHH!!fgewrheaztghngnjES*(wGP43Y83%&)^&o%(##&q#t#%u q

KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so tired!!!!

I'm supposed to be in penang and guess where am I. I'm at home! Dang! Guess why. 'Cause I'm too smart until I left my pg's house key at home. So I've to drive all the way home from pg for that fucking key.

That's why I'm here whining about it.

Like real tired. My whole back and body. I wish someone can run on my back like running treadmill. Imagine... I've to drive back pg again. OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. Imagine the jam... OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

WHY?? WHY I LEFT THE KEY HOME?!

Be right back. I go wash off my make up and move to upstair.
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(10 minutes later)

There's a weird thing grows on my foot. I've been told that is 'chicken eye'. Aite, I wanna google search about what's the cause of it, what's inside, what will happen if I did nothing to it, how to get rid of it, etc. But I dont know what it called in english, and also in mandarin. Tak kan type 'chicken eye' meh.

It's painful! Everyday stare at it thinking what should I do about it. People said it just needs a minor operation,  but it sounds so scary!! Dont it has some kinda cream or medicine to put on it something like that??

That fucking chicken eye looks so disgusting... I'm always thinking what will it look like if I slice it with knife. Blood or some disgusting tissue? EW! EW! EW! EW! EW!

Gosh I"m really really sleepy now. I've gotta off to bed.

I want Nando's as lunch tomorrow!!! HALF CHICKEN I'M GONNA EAT!

Toodles!

He's just not that into you.

What so hard to find someone you love and he loves you back as much as you do? I dont know why but it seems hard for me. =/ 

When I heard someone around me got a bf, (not try to be mean or what) I'm think, even she can find a bf why cant I? My friends said I'm too picky that's why. 

NOH! I never really set some terms in my heart about being my bf. (Okay maybe I did.) But I dont think that's considered picky. Everyone has their ideal bf/gf, so am I. I'm just happen to be single. 

There are some conditions.

1. I'm just not into him. What I can do if I really got no feeling to em? No right.
2. He's just not into me. And what I can do about it. Okay, it happens sometimes. Wait, it wasnt considered as 'like' yet 'cause I'm just kinda interested in him. I'll talk to him and once I find him not into me, I'll stop. 
3. He's into me and I'm into him. Sounds great right, but thing is, he's not ONLY into me, he's an asshole who into all the girls. Fine.
4. And here comes the worst. I'm so into him, but he already has a gf. Fml.

What I mean it's the worst is the feeling. You cant stop thinking about him. Thinking should I text him? Should I talk to him? Should I let him know how I feel? You expect every message is comes from him. You keep every message from him and read it when you miss him. Before you open the message you stare at the name bar praying his name will show. BUT HE HAS A GF! What should I do? It is sooooooooooooooo frustrating. 'Cause there's nothing you can do! 

I know some of you will say, haiya you already know he has a gf, what for to like him, serve you right! 

Yey I know I know, serve me right. -.- But what can I do??? He's just so my type even if I know he's in a relationship with someone else. I wont spoil their relationship though ('cause I'm not gonna do anything). I'm not that kind of girl and that is exactly why it's torturing. It disturbs your mind and your daily life until you forget about him. Sad or not. =/

It feeling so hard that can even makes you wanna cry...

Aite, I've to go get ready to work now. =/ 

Toodles!

GIMME INTERNET CONNECTION!!!

Yea, if you read my blog, you'll realised that I never update anything recently. 'CAUSE I CANT! 

Not because I'm too busy (well, I'm quite busy though recently), just because I cant get to online everywhere. Like EVERYWHERE! When I'm in pg, yea I said there's a cyber cafe that I can bring my own laptop there and online BUT it never opens at the fix time!! When I wanna go, it didnt open; when I dont wanna go, its door opens BIG BIG! CILAKA! WHY?!?!?

Alright, FINE. So I thought at least when I go home then I'll able to use FREE wifi all the day, online until my laptop exploded, guess what, I dont know whether it's my laptop or the damn modem, when I try to connect it, it shows "Limited access"... and I cant online. WTF IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?! Why my dad's dekstop can online and my laptop cannot?!?

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

AWESOME!

And now I'm using my dad's super old dekstop and keyboard, enjoying the typing sound...-.- SIGH!

Anyway, my working life is..... so far so good, except the pay is a bit low. -.- It's really quite a nice place to work, 'cause I can talk to loads of hmmmm foreigners HAHA! I find it interesting. xD There was a french asked me out for a drink. LOL! I didnt go lah of course.

But as I've said, the pay is really quite low, make me no motivation to hold it on. -.- That is also why I still considering whether temporarily stay with my friends or rent another place to stay. BUT, id I quit the job now or soon, I think I'll lose confident to my future, even an easy job I also cannot insist. -_____- Take it as a....n experience lah or some kind of self-discipline whatever. Do it as long as I can lah. =/


I got sooooo much to talk and also some pictures I'd like to share with you but before that, I'm gonna back to retry to connect my laptop to the connection. (Wow I used so many 'to') Because it would be easier to upload those pics and also I much prefer to use my laptop. =/ Sadness.

BRB!! Or maybe see you tomorrow. xD

Kuantan *face palm*

Currently staying at my aunt's house using my cousin brother's Mac. Thought I can tahan until go home to touch my laptop but cannot.

Despite the hotness, here got no wifi. No wifi means boring.

Gah I dont know what to write! The hotness is disturbing my brain's system and it cant spin nicely. You know how hot it is?! No! You wont know! It is freakingly hot and like no word could describes how hot it is. Is the weather actually like that or here is really hotter than Penang??! Or 'cause I seldom expose to the sunlight? I all the while feel myself sticky no matter how often I bath. Plus here got no air-con. The house is hot, the room is hot, everywhere is hot.

HOTTTTTT!

Anyway, my parents and I are here 'cause we're coming to visit my aunt, which is my dad's eldest sister. She's fell sick (quite serious I think). I'm not sure what's the sickness but I heard something about too much calcium in the blood (I know it's not a correct way to say that -.-). So apparently she's staying in the hospital.

Visited her today. She looks so weak! Sha cant talk properly 'cause she feels suffering whenever she eats, sit up and talk. =( Though it's been so long since last time I seen her, I still can realise the obvious physically changes. She's is so thin now and she cant even remember us from the first sight even my dad told her who are we. But she remember it later lah.

Guess she cant accept it and she realised how weak she is that she cant even remember her own brother, she started to say something like going to my my grandma (already passed away). My mum comforted her said it's reasonable that she cant remember us 'cause long time never see us already. 10 years I think?

She some more said feel so sorry to us 'cause we come all the way from pg to visit her but she cant cook us a meal. Awww. =( No such thing my dear aunt!

Come to think of it, my aunt is actually quite.... kelian. 'Cause she's living alone. Her husband passed away years ago, both of her sons are working and staying outside at JB and Sg. Imagine an old woman living alone here. Everyday wake up no one talk to her, she has to cook herself, eat alone. And what she can do after b'fast? Sit in the living room, watch the tv show alone. No transportation. From what I know, she cant even walk like a normal people apparently she cant ride a bicycle. =(

I think she got friends here lah, stay here for so long already but how she goes out to find em? How she goes to the market?? The market is like so far! Takkan walk there meh. Before her husband passed away still got him ride her there but now...

Mum said if my aunt wants, she can come to stay with my grandma also. There got more people and she wont get bored. =D But dont know she wants or not. =/

But luckily her son, my cousin brother already resigned and came back to take care of her.

Anyway, still, we're leaving tomorrow evening. Gonna say bye bye to her. =(

Da gu! Hope you'll get well soon and come pg to stay with us!

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I've done a stupid thing. I shouldnt be such a big mouth on something which is not related to me at all. Omg I'm so regretful. Okay maybe I thought it was a tit bits related with me. Sorry for being such a bitch... =(

Chao!

You know what I hate the most? I think I blogged about it before. I hate when I call someone, when I text someone, and  for whatever reason that person didnt reply. Okay I understand that not everyone is as free as me, I understand that people might be busy or yea that's not a right time to pick up my call or reply my text. But cant you call me back when you free? Cant you reply me when you free??

And okay! I also understand people are busy and they might forgot that someone called/texted them, that's why they didnt reply anything. Trust me, I thoroughly understand it. But you know what, it is also clearly show one fact that I am not important enough to let you remember I was looking for you. Or maybe, you just dont wanna talk to me, 'cause you dont even take me as your friend.

It maybe doesnt seem like a big deal, but I dont know why I just cant stand it. I can understand people cant reply me immediately but I cant understand why they cant reply me later when they are free. It irritates me every single time.

For example, some guys get mad when people touch their hair when I think it IS NOT a big deal at all. Or some girls they cant take it when people criticize on their taste of choices when I think it IS NOT a big deal too 'cause I know everyone got different taste. It's like a ......err landmine, nothing happen if you didnt step  on it. But if you stepped on it, you die. Okay wont die, something's gonna happen however.

Whereas I cant blame it 'cause I know I'm in the wrong as well. I dont reply people's message sometimes and I am also purposely dont pick up people's call sometimes. Because I dont want to talk to them. So it's the same lah, when you're doing something mean, people can do the same to you as well. =/

I'm such a selfish brat, I cant take it but at the same time I'm doing it to others.

Dang, done whining. Gotta go take a bath and sleep. Toodle!

Yaiks. Sorry people.

Early early in the morning get irritated by some questions. I know it wasnt their fault at all. They are maybe like just wondering, or simply out of concern. OR it's just a random question whatever.

But gahhhh, too many people asking me that and I dont know how many times I explained and answered those questions. It's really irritating wan you know. But of course, not the people irritate me.

And I was being kinda mean on fb just now 'cause two people asked me almost the same thing again at the same time. I get irritated and updated some ranting sarcastic statuses. I feel sorry to the innocent people now. =(

So dont ask me again what am I doing? Am I working? Why I'm not working? Why not study bla bla bla.

People, I'm not 'not working', I'm just havent start working YET. I WILL find a job just not now. And I'll tell the whole world when I got a job k? =/ Owh wait, I'm not working, do you have a problem with it?

My parents are not working as well. I think it's a heredity?

Why not study? 'Cause I'm freaking afraid of exam. Can? I've been studying, talking exams for my past 15 years of my life, it's time to rest now. I dont have big ambitions like gonna be a very successful person. As long as I'm happy, live the moment, and I can do whatever I want, I think it's enough.

Whether you agree or not with my life. I dont care. I'm finding my way as well.

You can recommend me what to do, I dont need your criticisms about it.

So, Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Fell sick!

Omg I'm so full of bugs inside my body! Out of sudden all the sicknesses come to me.

Sore throat
Run at the nose
Stuffy nose
Sneeze
Headache
Lack of sleep (okay it's not a sickness)
Insomnia then!
andddddd...
My eyes, I dont know, it's freaking tired. I think that's 'cause of the insomnia. =/
And and and GOSH! My left ear is freakingly itchy inside! And I cant do anything with it! I kept rolling with the cotton bud in order to reduce the itch, I even put some medicated cream on it! But cant! Geez!

And the sunburn on my shoulder, the skin is coming out like snake changes skin.

Owh and 'cause I'm a bit stuffed up, I cant breath well. Only one of my nostril is working, so now it needs to work harder to inhale the oxigen. It's actually quite... afflicting. -.-

I want some sleeping pills but my mum said no, it's no good. Sien, but then she gave me some med for err flu I think. Hopefully it gonna makes me sleep tight later.



Omaigawddddd please please be mercy. LEAVE ME ALONE! I got my own real friends and I dont need you! AT ALL!

Okay, already popped the med. Let's pray it'll does its work efficiently.

Toodle!

[Meinbrain]: About How I Say Hello

Sometimes I wonder am I over-enthusiastic when I say hello. I mean, you know, we bump into friends sometimes. I'm actually quite happy when I meet up with some friends at a place which we didnt make an appointment beforehand and when I saw them, I'll like "Hi!" "Hey!" with my hand waving outstandingly (or I'd say full of enthusiasm) and a big smile with em even to those I barely talk with (unless I dont like you lah.).

So this is how I say hello to my friends. But you know, some people, I dont know whether they dont like me or that's the way they are, I waved at them, and they'll like oh and nod their head, that's all. They dont even smile at me! It's like.... AWKWARD you know. It's like I thought we're friends but in fact you hate me or I'm just some nuts. =/

So when these people do this to me, I'll like ....hm okay. Fine, I'll not wave at you next time and ignore you! Hmph. Rude people. At least smile at me in return mah. Owh wait, or am I just being over-enthusiastic?? Should I just smile and nod my head as well next time when I bump into some friends??

BUT I CANT! You know when you're really happy, you express yourself really too. It's automatically I'll wave at my friends when I saw them 'cause I'm happy to see you. It's actually normal right? I mean I'm behaving very ordinary right?

I'm this kind of person, when I'm nice to you, I expect you to nice to me too. If you dont, yes, I'll never nice to you anymore, and you will never get my respect at the same time. But I wont talk bad about you lah. 'Cause my brain cant remember bad attitude people.

Done.

*Wave!* 

The Unluckiest Day!

=(

Today is the unluckiest day ever.

First, I went my friend's house party, I drank too much and had a hangover in the afternoon. I threw up at least three times! Okay, I felt nausea so I dug my throat with finger to make myself puke in order to make myself feel better. But I think it didnt really work 'cause I still feeling the nausea. And I got a huge bruise which I didnt know where the hell I got it from.

My dad said if I didnt take care of it properly it gonna became cancer. I was like... hm. o.0

Yeaa yeaa I deserved it. No one forces me to drink so much. -.- But hmm, at least I had fun yesterday night! =D I met some new friends and all of them are so nice and interesting! xD

Back to the story. Second, I was reading newspaper and my cats were about to fight at the side. So I tried to stop it and THE SAME DAMN CAT BITTEN ME AGAIN!!! And it bleeds this time!!



Look at it!!! =''''( It's swollen. Few holes on my hand again...

Third, so I wanna move my laptop to downstair, I was taking my laptop and when I was almost reach the floor, I mis-stepped on the wrong step and fell down from the stairs, I landed on the floor awkwardly with my both knees and I wrenched my foot. It's hurt inside and I cant twist it now. It's really hurt! =(

My hand is injured, my foot is injured and my stomach is injured. I injured from inner to external. AWESOME!

WHY MY CAT ALWAYS BITES ME?! $^%$*%^#@#