Kill me please.

I cried the all night long, cant sleep at all 'cause of the fucking toothache. It's swollen until I cant even close my mouth as it is bloodily painful. Like I'd rather die. Even my ear is pain inside. How I wish I can chop off half of my face now and the fucking tooth. Once the dentist pull it out, I swear I'm gonna crash it with hammer into powdery.

And all the cb people, it's like damn obviously I've been talking about my toothache since the fucking last night, now still got people ask me 'what happened omg'. Cheebye you cant read english is it? Many updates in a row I'm ranting about my toothache and you still fucking ask me what happened. Ask ask ask every time I posted something you ask what has happened, you just cant read yourself right.

Fuck I'm so peh chek with all the tiny stuffs.

I popped all kind of medicine it says it would relieve the pain, all not working AT ALL.

ARGHHHHHHHH!!fgewrheaztghngnjES*(wGP43Y83%&)^&o%(##&q#t#%u q

KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Korean Movie]: Hello Ghost

I just finished watching a korean movie just now and it is too good, too nice, too touching that I think I must write about it. 

I mean... REALLY REALLY NICE! 

Hello Ghost  <哈喽，开心鬼/开心鬼上身>

Let's talk about the movie.

The story starts with the main character, Sang-man, who tries to commit suicide but failed. And since that day onwards, he starts seeing four ghosts. The only way to make them leave is by helping them carry out their wishes. 

Apparently, it's a comedy. But the ending is like omg omg omg soooooo touching and it was kinda out of my expectation. I really feel like telling you what's the ending but I prefer you to watch it yourself. It's really really nice. =')

I laughed throughout the whole movie until the ending, it was damn touched and made me cried until like dont know how to say. Lol! And then the whole story started to make sense. Haha.

Watch it watch it!!! 

Go pps or wherever can watch. 

Watchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Life is beautiful

Why suicide?

I used to have this thought, no matter what, killing yourself is the stupidest decision and solution. 'Cause I think everything can be solve other than death.

But it's true that if things never happen on you, you'll never know how bad/pain it feels. Or how despair you'll feel.

For example, you lose shitloads of money in some gambling. The amount of the arrear is like you cant able to pay it even if you sell yourself 100 times. So you borrow money from 'Ah long'. Then the arrear rolling bigger and bigger. The creditors then do all the bad thing to you, to your family to threaten you to pay all the arrear. Soon, your wife abandoned you and bringing your children away from you. The ah longs come and kacau again, your parents scold you, friends leave you.

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...this is kinda suicidal right?

K la no objection to suicide for this. 'Cause things run to thing condition, I dont know what else still can do other than die. But it's your own fault for making thing this way. You serve it right.

I thought of suicide also when I was a little bit younger. Everytime I got my result especially Bahasa Melayu's, it makes me feel suicidal. -.- And when my dad forces me to go study, don't allow me to watch my favourite show, I feel suicidal as well.

What make me not to? Haha! Ok, when I felt suicidal, I think of my favourite dramas. I was thinking

'If I die, I cant finish the drama anymore!'.

Or I think of my favourite food.

'If I die, I cant eat them anymore!'

Funny? It's true. Hahaha when we still a kid, these are almost everything in our life.

Anyway, I'm still alive. I'm basically totally an optimist. Even I met something bad, I'll optimize it and rarely thought of suicide. But of course, I hardly meet something really bad yet in my life.

Owh ok, when I bang my car, it's really suicidal when I'm gonna tell my mum about it.

Ok there's various kind of reasons for people to suicide.

Amongst all of them, I think suicide for some love issues is the stupidest, irrationalest, and it's really tactless.

Kill yourself when someone dumped you? You really so choiceless until like that or cant live without them? Or in the contrary, you suicide to make it as a revenge for dumping you or neglecting you? If it is, you really can just go die already. 'Cause you're too lifeless. Moreover, killing yourself as a revenge is even stupider. You might make her/him guilty like for few years but trust me, time cures everything. Sooner or later, he/she will get over and forget about you. And live happily again.

What were you thinking when you decided to end your life because of a girl/guy? Even if that person did something really really bad, do you seriously need to go die? If you do, so do you mean that the person worth you life? Come on.

Suicide for a girl/guy wont makes you look greater. NO. It just make you much more stupid than you appearance shows.

You never think about how sad your parents will be, your family, your friends.

If you say you're just simply love her/him so much and you cant live without them? Your ass!

Then how could you kill yourself and make her feels bad if you really love her?

You're just a selfish asshole thinking without brain. =/

Am I too harsh? But it's true.

Why am I so agitated? 'Cause I read a news of a guy who just suicided 'cause the gf dumped him and doesnt wants to get back with him. =/

Here's the news. It's in mandrin though.

http://www.chinapress.com.my/content_new.asp?dt=2010-12-10&sec=malaysia&art=1210mb20.txt

And this is the so called will?

http://www.facebook.com/notes/alviss-kong/ni-de-wu-qing-gei-le-wo-wu-bi-de-que-xin-3-alviss-last-note/181668725179222

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So many human out there, only the one you love is human? Or you live inside a cave and see no one?

It's actually quite hard to describe the stupidness of ending life for just a girl or guy dumping you.

Though I really felt sad for him when reading what he wrote. =( And I'm not scolding or accusing what he had done. I just really disagree people belittle their life this way.

Sincerely hope no one in my life would do such thing. It's too heart breaking.

R.I.P

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Bastarddddd!

Woots, everyone got new stuff. My cousin just got an Experia X10 from her dad. Howww niceeee.

Anyway, there's another thing I'm gonna talk about.

I went a wedding dinner last night with my parents which I dont even know who's married and how they related to me. Ok that's not the point. There was an old uncle he first keep staring at me when passed by my table. *My parents and I were sitting separately, I was sitting with my grandma. And I realised he was just sit next to my parents' table. And also, I realised that he was still keep staring at me when he already sat down. He even toast to me. Fine, I smiled, ignored and avoided all the possible eye contacts after that.

Until my dearest grandma pushed me with her elbow and said, that uncle is calling you. So I forced to have the second eye contact with him of the night. I dont know what my grandma thinking, she said that's her friend so when that 'seems' cheeky uncle waved at me hinting me to go over there, my grandma said, go go. Fineeeeeeeeeeeee, even though I really dont wanna go.

I actually intended just go over there, stand beside and see what he wants. Owh he then forced me to sit down. And the first thing he asked,

"lu ti ti peng chio kua?"

(it's in teochew, which means where I sing and that's usually indicates I'm those ca bo who sing in the so called night club that fulled of cheeky lonely pian tai old men)

Wtf?! Which part am I look like those 'chio kua ca bo' in the night club?! I was first thought I heard the wrong thing so I ignored it. When I was about to run away from there, suddenly another uncle talked to me, nicely. I mean he looks normal compare to the bastard. At the same time, I was looking everywhere see who can save me out from here. No one. Okay, my dad saw me, but he just strangely staring at me, wondering what I'm doing within a group of old man. Damn!

I was talking to that uncle and ignored the bastard, meanwhile, the bastard's head was coming nearer and nearer to me. I thought he just cant hear what I was saying so he has to come nearer. Until his fucking bloody head is almost lean on my chest! ...Boobs I mean. -.-

I was so freaked out and stand up ran away.

His friend summore exculpated that he was so drunk. Asshole! He was fucking sober!

Arghhhhhhhhhhhh I'm so regret 'cause I should've slap on his bloody head.

When we're on the way home, I blamed on my grandma. 'Cause she shouldn't ask me to go there. But she still quibble that he's her friend. Please she doesnt even know what's his name! She said she knows him 'cause when that bastard toast to me, she thought he was toast to her. Great.

Well, I cant blame everything on her, anyhow, I walk there by myself. -___- But if my grandma didnt force me to go, I wont!

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Ok dont say it's all because of my boobs or I'm just try to show off. I always I have smaller boobs k. Owh I just made it like showing off. Trust me, I didnt meant it. And I really wish I could have smaller boobs.

If you wanna die faster, just live like this

I got this article from fb. It listed out all the kind of life styles to die faster AND I fulfilled 14 out of 20. I'm dying soon I guess. Lol!

最短命的活法，不要命的就这么活吧

1. 长时间对着电脑 (Face your computer for hours)
2. 晚上十一点以后睡觉 (Sleep after 11p.m.)
3. 不能保证睡眠时间 (Cant assure sleeping hour)
4. 极度缺乏体育锻炼 (Extremely lack of exercises)
5. 有病不求医 (Do not consult doctor when sick)
6. 吃饭口味偏重，特别喜欢咸的和辣的 (Especially like spicy and salty food)
7. 不饿不吃；不困不睡；不累不息 (Ent only when you're hungry; sleep only when you're sleepy; rest only when you're tired)
8. 与家人缺少交流 (Lack of communication with family)
9. 长时间用手机打电话，享受近距离辐射 (Always make calls with handphone, enjoy radiation)
10. 三餐饮食无规律 (Do not eat at proper time)
11. 一直呆在空调房里，还不停喝冷饮 (Stay in an aircon room for hours and still keep drinking cold drinks)
12. 早上睡得很晚，错过早餐 (Wake up late and skip the breakfast)
13. 把酒精饮品、碳酸饮料、茶、咖啡、果汁、乳制品等饮料当水喝 (Drink alcohol, soft drinks, tea, coffee, juices, dairy products like drinking water)
14. 生活没有规律，忙时太忙；闲时太闲 (Dont have a disciplinary life style)
15. 喝水太少，不渴到一定境界绝对懒得喝 (Lack of intake of water)
16. 在床上看书看报 (Read while lying on the bed)
17. 抽烟或者喝酒 (Smoke or alcoholic)
18. 坐车看书看报或者玩手机 (Read or play your handphone in the car)
19. 长时间坐着，不管是学习、工作还是娱乐 (Sit for hours no matter studying, working or playing)
20. 不吃早餐 (Do not eat breakfast)

I already tried my best to translate all of these. -.-
But it seems a life style of most of the students nowadays right? Damn. I really swear to myself a lot to make my life style normal, at least sleep early everyday. And then jogging every morning but I cant 'cause I need a companion to jog with me. =/
Let see when I can achieve it.
And then I feel like wanna go learn something like drum? =D Argh!
Whatever let it starts from tmr! I'll wake up early in the morning and sleep very early every night! :D I'll look younger and glow like a star! And HEALTHY! Woohoo!

Hell-oween Day

If you think she looks familiar, yea, she's the one you saw at Auto City. And that's me. Oh-em-gee I know.
You wont feel how I felt with THIS make up in my face for WHOLE DAY.
Omg I'm emo until I dont know how to tell the whole story. Okok let's start with since I wake up today.
I slept at 2am! Very very early! And straight away sleep until the next day 1:30pm. Dont be surprise if you think I sleep too much 'cause I didnt sleep the previous day. Dont surprise for this either.

The people picked me up at 4pm when they supposed to pick me up at 3 sth and we supposed to reach their college (behind Pacific) at 3 for preparation. Anyhow we reached the college, make some basic foundation and change. Then rush to Auto City. THEN we met an accident (the point of this paragraph). We were on the straight way suddenly a van came out from the side. And this and that, our car just banged the damn van. And I banged on the cushion in front of me (another point). It's quite hard. It's like frontal attack my face to the cushion. Luckily I just grazed my lips but it's swollen now!
After this and that, we finally reached Auto City at 5:30pm when we supposed to gather at 5pm. Bravo bravo.
We then start to do all the make up until 8:30pm on the stage. After that walk around Auto City, took alot of pictures with alot of strangers. We even walk to the Fuel. I feel myself like a stupid clown. Luckily no one can recognise me and I didnt meet any friends there. Phewww.

I was bloody hot tonight. Literally hot. You can see that from the pic. The scars and the fake blood all over my face my neck my hands my legs. The fake blood even flew along my cleavage. So I'm like seriously BLOODY hot.

I dont know what it called, the thing they used to make scars. It smells pungent and extremely sticky. When they made a scar on my neck, it sticked to my hair. Imagine if a chewing gum stick to your hair. Yey it was exactly like that. Wash until I gonna cry.
Everything end at 11sth, I got home at 12:30am. Spent about half an hour to remove the make up, another ONE HOUR in the bathroom to wash up myself thoroughly from hair to my toe.

The thing they used to make up are creamy and oily and sticky. ESPECIALLY MY HAIR. I was like brushing here and there. Wasted half bottle of my shampoo, half bottle of shower gel, half bottel of makeup remover, half pack of cotton.
Wash until I almost cry, until my skin gonna comes out.

URGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALL OF THESE!! What I got?
I got my hair ruined. My legs ached. Ached back. My eyes tired. Trauma from the accident. A bruise on lips. Hungry for whole day. Yet, Missed all the parties. BRAVO!

What I got in return for attending the contest? Nothing! Well I saw alot of humans.
I'm gonna cry. Sighhhh.

Tonight supposed to be a loads-of-fun-night's night, I ended up stuck at Auto City, standing most of the time, walked around there with an unbreathable makeup on my face.

Wonderfullllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.