Emotional

I dont hate you. I really think so.
But somehow it makes me scunner whenever I see your name and your photo appear on my news feed. =/ And the saddest part is, you're always at the top.

Argh! Why? It's annoying.

I hate being myself!

Dammit.

I'm so gonna delete some strangers from my fb then only I can add my friends. So mmm sorry if I deleted you heh. =D

Btw, Should I create another new account for my msn? I already got 2! =( Both of them kena the same problem. STUPID THING! Why like this?! I lazy to create another one! And too much passwords are confusing.
I that possible I've been hacked by someone?? But then why??? Msn also wanna hack! Nothing inside also! ;(

I wish I can speak better english!!! My english sucks! Argh!

Okay, I'm going to cook porridge now. And some soup perhaps. =D

Bye~

Awesome Nite

Had a great night with lotsssssssssssssss of friends. Come I list them out. XD
John Chew, who driving all the way to pick up everyone. THANK YOU!
Eddy Lim, who I didnt see for long time. *Hand punchhhh*
Shindee Wei, who took off her high heels with me and walk in UPR. XD
YeeMing, the very effective photographer.
Winnie Goh & LST, the love birds. Haha!
FeiCui & Chucky, another pair of love birds!
Owh and Nigel Law, the new cute friend. Haha!
YitSin, your red shirt very impressive. LOL!
I met YK's sister also, Joelle.

We went 7aste. But it was just the beginning. The later the better. XD
The first 2 hours at 7aste was like.... hmmmm. Nvm, then we went Nigel's table. KEEEEEEEEEP on taking photos. That's the best part there! I got myself a photo of me, Shindee and Nigel but I left it in Shindee's bag. =( Lucky she said will give me back haha! Cuz if I left at Nigel's place, I'm sure he's so not gonna give me back. He loves that pic!

That's the pic. =D








After thatt, we went UPR.
I went SS to find my friends. I enter SS like my own house Haha! I'm just kiddingggg. Cuz the friend I'm talking is the owner of SS and his friends. I met them on the cruise. Haha.
Then I ran in Voodoo, ALONE. No one bring me in. HAHA! I talk to the staffs say I'm going in to find my friends, can I? And then they let me in. HOW FRIENDLY! And then when I came out I ask them can I come back later again, and they said no problem. Hahaha. Really friendly!


I like Winnie's hair, so shiny! =O

Running here and there again.

But I think I'll stop drinking like this again. =.= I cant stand the smell of alcohol now. And alcohol can makes people fat. I DONT WANT! =( Hahhhhh, my stomach is tired. >.< Btw I'm going for a wedding dinner tonight. Perhaps I wont see alcohol. Or please dont put in front of me. Nausea................ THANKS PEOPLE! FOR THE GREAT NIGHT! ♥

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Hangover

It's been sooooo long since last time I went UPR. And I gonna admit that I really had a lot of fun ytd with allll my friends. I met alot of friends there!

Haha. I keep running here and there from Voodoo to SS and Fame.
Aww damn happy to see friends there. I met Kelley the sexy babe, I met Hazel Wong and Joan Cheah there. I met friends which I didnt see them quite awhile. Met new friends. Awww (That's Muntatt and Jong)

I miss the time when I was living there! Ah Hunnnnnnn!!!!! Come back Come back!!

I dont remember how much I drank but I felt damn nausea in the morning. I went downstair walking here and there, got myself a warm water perhaps it could makes me feel better. I wanna puke but cant, that's the worst!! I continued to sleep after that until 5pm.

Now I'm gonna go shower! And then grab some food!

To be continued.

*Ahem*
Look at people's 20th birthday. They got celebrations, friends gathering, laughters, surprises.
Compare to mine???

GREATTTTT.

I got my cat died. And freedom. No friends gathering and celebration. Got cry (cuc of the death od my cat). Surprise yes. Cuz of the death of my cat as well.

Tsk tsk. Pathetic case. What a failure. I SWEAR I gonna do something on my 21st BIRTHDAY!
Anything other than nothing! =m=

Still early though. Haha!!

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Last few days, I went a boutique with a friend of mine, Susan which located nearby my house. And I heard the conversation accidently between the owner and her clients, 2 girls which around my age. They talk about what they do together and also clubbing together very loudly and hmmm I dont know how to describe the feeling.

As you know, the place I'm living is kinda quite a countryside area. Girls here are ...... they dont go out often and for some of them, the place at another side of the Penang bridge is considered very far and a place only they go when there's something special. The island is a big big place for them. I said SOME of them huh!
So it's like, when they talk about things they do on the island, they sound very proud and will talk louder like showing off. As for clubbing. For them it's like a place for elite/classy people, and when they go in there, they feel like they are classy too. But hmmmm =/ I dont know. No offense. But clubbing is just an activity that most of the teenagers do, you dont have to be sound conceited like you are in a higher level than other people.
It is NORMAL to go clubbing, get the fact.

Btw, Imma like to bring my cousin go clubbing on her 18th birthday on 31st Dec and celebrate the new year countdown in passing. XD Anyone is going or what?
Owh, she's thin and tall. Hahaha! Single and available!

End.

My Happy Ending

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Dont leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they dont know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories so close to be just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
All of the memories so close to me just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending


Niceeeeeeeeeee lyrics. For so long now only I realized. XD

I want!

I want to learn drum cause I think it is very cool. And my mum said IF I can find someone to teach me, she'll buys a drumset for me. I'm talking a western drum btw.

I want to have a tattoo on me but I scared what if I get bored of the totem then I will be very regret and upset. =(

I want to grow taller cause I think it will make me look slimmer and sexier. But it already over the time I can grow. =(

I want to have a big room so I can have a big closet to put my clothes and my books. My room is wayyyyyyyy too small. ;(

I want to be smarter cause hmmmm... I want to be smarter.

I want to have a lot of friends!

I want all my friends love me. XD

I want my parents can have a long life! =D But my mum doesnt want cause she said when she's 80 years old her face will full of wrinkles like a Shar Pei. =/ She said 60-65 years old is more than enough.

I want to have a lot of hair. I always wonder my hair got enough time to grow back or not cause I drop a lot of hair everyday. I kinda scared I will be bald soon in my future. =S

I want to learn piano cause hmmm I like the sound.

I want to have a nice teeth!


Aiks. How?? =/

XD

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Someone pleaseeeeee tell me why I cant login my MSN???????????????
I can login my hotmail but cant login the MSN!
My password is correct but still I cannot login.

WHY?!?!?!?!?!!

WHYYYY?!?!?!????!!!

WHYYYY!!???!?!?!

Am I strike you fierce? I posted it on fb dont mean I care how you think of me. I'm just wondering that am I really strike people that way. And I dont know you, I really dont care what's in your mind.

DO NOT teach me how the way I should talk to my friends. I told you cuz we (excluded you) are old friends that's why we CAN talk like that. If I scared you, DO NOT expect I'll apologize. That's not my responsibility. I DO NOT care whether you can accept the way I talk to MY FRIENDS or not, as long as MY FRIENDS can accept it. Whatever you think of me, I DO NOT care. Because, I DO NOT know you. You DO NOT in the sphere of my attention.
Btw, you really made a rasional decision of not talk to me when you bumped into me at Batu Ferringhi. I will ignore you(stranger).

Actually I didnt hate you or have any emotional feeling on you, but now, you're totally out.
Stop pretend like you're sophisticated. No matter you meant it or not, you strike me that way.

Do you believe if I say I bear you no malice?
Really No offense.

Owh I apologize if I'm being too rude now.

Randommmmm

Susan Wong came my house yesterday. We took brunch together. =) It's been so longggg. Whenver we meet, we talk alot and laugh alot too. XD She's one of my bestie here. =3 She likes to touch my stuffs, open my closet and looking for new clothes, my nailpolishes, my cosmetics, haha everything in my room la. XD And so do I. When I go her house, I explore her room.

Without eyeliner

With eyeliner

Eyes look bigger right!

This is the book I was talking! The Ring. I already finished reading it thought. The story was like... out of my expectation. Cuz I thought it supposed to be a horror story which about ghost and revenge. But then turn out it's an infectious disease? -.= And the ending is hmmmm kinda unsatisfied. =m= I expect it to be more scary weh.

Nvm la, at least now I know the whole story.

Btw, I watched the movie alone yesterday. XD So so.

Bboohh!

Hahahh~

Watchout of your televition! Ggg~

To be continued.

Beach and us

So there's a saying, last munite's plan always will be a memorable memory.
Me and a group of high school's classmates went Batu Feringhi yesterday. We planed that on the previous day night. Discussed about what to bring, what food to prepare and drinks. I made the sanwiches! Super simple sandwiches. Anyway, we reached there at 4 something and started enjoying the sea and beach. We play banana boat too! Photos are ready on fb. =D We went Sunset Bistro after that. A place I didnt been for so long. Nothing special but funs lot. XD

I was exhausted == cuz I didnt sleep that day. Then! I slept at 12:30am that day! And I woke up at 9am today!! Seriously I'm so proud of it. Hahaha!

Owh Happy Birthday to Goh Jian Hao in advanced! Again.

To be continued.

Heh?!

How come the picture so big wan??! Arrgh!

Dog-fight!!

Reviewed all my posted blogs, I can briefly categorise them in different categories month by month in 2012.

January - The Korean dramas month

February - Telling-own-stories month

March & April - The lovely months

May & June - Nothing-to-blog months

July - The heart-breaking month

August - Collect-pieces-of-broken-heart month

September - The-totally-Me-is back month

Haha lame I know.
Owh haha! I'm going to take part in the Penang bridge marathon with my cousins. Before that, I need to buy myself a pair of super comfy sport shoes which I actually wanted for so long. Anyone is going??

I'm currently reading a book, The Ring. Yea the famous horro Japanese movie. Not the Lord of Ring. Actually I watched it before but I dont really understand what is going on in the movie. == So I bought the book tend to know deeper and clearer what it is actually about.

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In the evening, there was a dogs fight between my dogs and my neighbour's dog. It was quite serious. Owing to save our own dog, my mum went and try to stop errr try to make her small sized dog out from the big-dogs fight by using her leg, intend to sweep it out from danger. But then unfortunately, she was bitten by neighbour's dog. A friend of my mum tried to save her, he used a plastic chair to separate them and chased the neighbour's dog inside their own house. Well, it was in. But once my mum's friend put down the chair, it ran out and bite him on his foot.
For the very first time I saw human's blood can actually spouting like waterfall from the wound. I was totally freaked out as I saw the whole thing.
The injury of my mum's friend is much more serious compare to my mum's.
Imagine, the blood is spouting, flowing out and the road is full of his blood. Kesian. May you recover soon. >.< style="color:#336666;">* I hate using laptop without a mouse!

End.

For my BSF

I lllllllllllllove this song. This song always reminds me of lots of interesting and memorable memories.
The first time I heard of this song was at front door of Gurney which I was having my very first part time job, delivering flyers with Chloe. The staffs keep on repeating this song the 3 days and made it stucked on my head for quite a long time.
And then we met new friends, Eddy and "George"-Say Teong. He introduced himself as George -.= and Chloe did actually called him that name for some times. XD Well, thanks them, because of them I know alot of new friends from their gang. They are interesting. And thanks them for putting more colors to my college life.
Chloe Yun is a great person I should say. She's amazing. XD And thank her very much, she really making me enjoy my life in Penang. Awww I missed the times we hangout together! Have beers, have talks, have games. Sunset bistro, once our favourite talk place. We share, we laugh together, cry together, crazy together, and all. The malls, the beach, the plans. Haha.
Ah Hun, I might not be your best best friend cuz I know you got alot of friends. You're sociable and friendly and gorgeous unlike me, but you're definitely my BFF of this life! And also the next life!
Hereby, I'd like to tell you I LOVE YOU! AND IT'S THE MOST LUCKIEST THING TO HAVE YOU AS MY FRIEND! XOXO
XD I'm just happy. And you'll always be happy too! Come to me if you meet any problem. I'll always be there. =)

You, you, you and you.

I think I wont meet any nice guy anymore in the rest of my life. == Cuz I already missed 3. Which perhaps they liked me so much. But I didnt hold on them. =/

3 of em are the seniors of my high school. But of course, they chased after me in different time. Dont expect me to typr their names out. XD Let's call them J, C and N. You might know who are they IF you know me or you're from the same high school as mine.

J is a sweet guy. But I was too young that time. Mum says, NO love offair before you graduate! So we didnt make it though everyone thought we're going together that time. This made us quite popular that time. XD And we're end. =/

C, what can I say is we're fateless. It was predestined that we can to be together. But I'm not going to say why. Aiks.

N was my first bf which loved me so much. He cares about me and everything. But hmm it's too complicated to explain what happened. But it was my fault. It was my fault that I didnt hold on him. I did something stupid and I hurt him deeply. *That's why I got the karma now. == Due to my guiltiness, I broke up with him. I think... if time turns back, things might be different. =/

Nahh, I said these not because of I cant let something go. I just feel a little bit wasted on what I've done which I could make things in a better way.

Owh yea, there's another guy, L, who loved me so much as well. But I didnt fall for him. So we became good friends after some incidents. I never meant to hurt him but it just happened. He was once the only reason I sign in my MSN, cuz I can talk anything to him. No matter how busy he was, he can just listens to my grumbles, my problems and gives me suggestions or advices. As a friend, I really do appreciate him. But I think I too selfish. I thought he'll always be there when I need someone to talk to, cuz I know he loves me. He told me not to take him for granted but I never regret on that. Now, I believe he already totally gave up on me. We didnt talk anymore. Maybe he's just busy, or maybe there's some other reasons. But hey, thanks dude. ;) You know I'm talking about you if you're reading. I used to have you as my supporter and super fans! XD Thanks for everything. =)

Now everything is over, we should look forward and move on. Aiks. There are soooo many stupid things I did. == Perhaps I'll be smarter next time. ;D

I'm kinda at ease about writing all these things here cuz I know none of them are reading my blog. XD

It's already 10th and I still dont have my first Sept's post. XD Let's blog something!

Guess what!!! I slept at 12:30pm yesterday!!! Damn early right?? Yea I know I know. Cuz I didnt sleep at the previous day. I mean almost didnt sleep. And then I woke up at 7am today! But then I slept again until 3pm... ==
Owh yea, I went Qb with my friends yesterday. Sadly my Winnie cant make it cuz according to what she said, her stomach got bacteria! =.= Haha. Too much candy or what? XDDD
Before we got home, we went Auto City for dinner, supposed to. Cuz I slept while they were eating. I didnt even know they were eating! Until I saw the dishes when they woke me up. I bumped into Shane and Kelley and err Yong Zheng (perhaps -.=) and another which I already forgot the name (sorry!).

My old friend, Chee Liang said I look damn cool! An unfriendly cool. He doesnt know how to express it even. Haha! But I thought I look sweet?? XDDDD
Alright alright. Indeed, I'm not THAT friendly to strangers. I mean I can be polite but not enthusiastic. I can be crazily crazy but only with my BBF. I guess you dont want me to list out who are my BBF. XD

By the way, I dont really want to accept strangers in my msn. There are too much in my fb. I dont need them to cram my msn also. =.= I'm sorry if I didnt accept your request or I didnt reply you.

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I'm been busy on doing the cross stitch this few days. XD See! I can sew!

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There's a guy in my fb. I dont know him. We never talk to each other before. But i found he's very very annoying. The thing he post, the way he post and so on. And look at all the pictures you can see he's the type who totally thought he's handsome but actually he's not. But god damn I can always see him appears on my news feed! Sounds familiar?? Maybe he's the one you think he is.

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End.

Read ME little. ;)

Some people said that I'm so lazy to blog now. Indeed, my blog issssssss deadly dead. I got nothing to blog about! I dont have a study pressure, work pressure and money pressure too. Haha. What? No no. I'm not going to talk about my relationship and what I did. Yeaaa I did whine about it sometimes but I didnt point everything out! Ha! Hmm you can ask me personally if you're interested. XD I might tell you if I need someone to talk. Just need to make sure who are you to me. I dont talk much to strangers.

I'm currently watching the drama, Gossip Girl. It's quite nice. Haha I know I'm too slow to watch it. I'm only in Season 1. Okay. Nothing else I can talk about my life. Let's talk about me. If you're interested to know. =P

I know most of the people who dont know me, or know me but not that well, anyway, those who know me well, they must know one thing, I Dont Drink Milk, at all. Those who thought I love milk, they must be misled by my boobs. People, doesnt means big boobies love milk. That's wrong. I dont drink milk but still I've no idea what's wrong with "them". I was totally a flat board until I was 15. Milk cause me nausea and I'll puke if I drink too much. And I dont drink papaya milk either. == Dont doubt, my boobs most probably inheritated from my mum. You know, there're some haters in my high school even made a rumour that I did a plastic surgery. Come on. Get a life. Admit that you're jealous cuz you're flat. But who cares. Thanks for making me DAMN famous in my school life. Btw, I'm already famous at my area before my boobs grows up. XD

Coffee, tea or me~?
Owh me pick TEA. And I dont drink coffee. I dont know why, I just dont drink. And everything smell or taste like coffee, are out of my list too. For no reason. I love tea though it would make me sound like an oldie. XD But tea are healthy right? Tea has flouride for strong teeth, virtually no calories, and half the amount caffeine found in an equally-sized cup of coffee. Then why not tea? Haha.

I'm good in sports when I was in high school. Dooubtless, I got quite alot of medals. Owh speeches too! And singing! XD I'm good in singing. =D Drawing anddddddd collecting books? Haha. I love books except for school books.

Heyyy, I'd like to talk about the haters in my high school. Omg they are really a group of bitchy bitches. I always got scold in the school which I actually dont know what's going on. And most of them are younger than me. == Yes, I got bullied.
I remember there's one time when I was stay back for afternoon's some practices. I went in the toilet with a bestie, then some girls came in. They then saw me and started to scold me. But I only know that they're scolding after we came out from toilet, my bestie told me. I was like shrug and walk away.
I guess they are just too free or jealousy or unconfident or whatever. Is that my fault that their boyfriends pursued me before them?? Blame your face then, or your personallity. I sound mean but trust me, they even worse. == I got scold with all the bad words because of some stupid reasons.
Some of them scold me cuz they say I act cute or my artificial manners. Hello, I born cute, I dont need to act cute. HAHAHA! And I'm not overacting, you people are just too rude. Sigh, they are just some poor souls of sooooo unconfident to themselves, and they blamed that on me. =/ Hahaha I know I sound conceited, but just let me please myself.

Am I bolg too much?? I think that's enough. XD

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