Just A Dream by Nelly - Sam Tsui & Christina Grimmie

Now I got even addicted to this song. xD

Just a Dream

I was thinking about you

Thinking bout me

Thinkin bout us

What we gunna be?

Open my eyes,

it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back

down that road

Will you come back?

No one knows

I realize

It was only just a dream.

I was at the top and now its like I'm in the basement

Number 1 spot, Now you find you a replacement

I swear now that I can't take it

Knowing somebody's got my baby

Now you ain't around, baby I can't think

I shoulda put it down, shoulda got that ring

Cuz I can still feel it in the air

See your pretty face, run my fingers through your hair

My love of my life, My baby, my wife

You left me, Im tied.

Cuz I know that it just ain't right

I was thinking about you

Thinking bout me

Thinkin bout us

What we gunna be?

Open my eyes,

it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back

Down that road

Will you come back?

No one knows

I realize

It was only just a dream.

When I be ridin

man I swear I see your face at every turn

trying to get my usher on but I can't let it burn

And I just hope that you notice you the only one I yearn for

No more will I be missing, will I learn?

Didn't give you all my love

I guess now I got my payback

Now im in the club thinking all about you baby

HEY, you were so easy to love

But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough

I'm going through it everytime that I'm alone

Now I'm wishing you would pick up the phone

Show me that decision that you wanted to move on

Cause I was wrong.

I was thinking about you

Thinking bout me

Thinkin bout us

What we gunna be?

Open my eyes,

it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back

Down that road

Will you come back?

No one knows

I realize

It was only just a dream...

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up

Now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything

X2

I was thinking about you

Thinking bout me

Thinkin bout us

What we gonna be?

Open my eyes,

it was only just a dream...

So I drive on back

Down that road

Will you come back?

No one knows

I realize

It was only just a dream...

X2

Just a dream

"I was thinking bout her

Thinking bout me

Thinking bout us

What we gonna be

Open my eyes

It was only just a dream..."

A song I'm addicted recently. Thanks Mun Tatt the hawtie.

Quite some of my friends saying that my life is soooooo nice.

Not studying not working.

Actually it's not something I can proud of. Being a teen like me, age of 20, should have a wonderful life. Enjoying the busy of work, outing with friends, knowing new people and so on.

And mine just too lifeless.

I always believe in myself that I wanna do something but some part inside my heart is scared of facing these, to be an adult?

I dont know what I can do. What I'm actually really interested. I wanna move out to somewhere, live alone outside and fight my way. But my mum doesnt really let me staying outside again. I dont know why she wanted me to stay at home, simply find something to do nearby my house. I dont want to end my youth here and end up find a husband here, get married, old and die here. Is she just want me to spend more time with them?

I'm the only daughter anyhow. They only got me, and I only got them. I'm growing up everyday, they are getting older everyday...

I'm really get annoyed when people ask me, dont you feel bored to do nothing everyday at home? Dont you think you should find something to do? Are you gonna find something to do? What you gonna do? Asking these like I really like to waste my life this way, like I'm happy to be lifeless. And reason things out like I'm sooooo naive and dont know I'm wasting my time.

Please, I know what you gonna say when you just about to move your tongue.

No. I'm unhappy with these. I really do think about what to do in my future. I really do try to plan what I'm gonna do. I myself even feel suffocated just to THINK of these and now I even have to EXPLAIN everything to you?

But I know most of you asking these are just simply out of concern. It's warm I know and I understand.

Just some of them, they sound really discriminate when they dont know what I'm thinking and they dont care how you feel. Speak like wahhhhh they are mature, they are sophisticated, they are great everything. Show off or what I dont know lah. But I think they are just try to be nice as well.

And yea. I feel quite ashamed that I'm so lifeless. Thanks for letting me aware of it again and again.

I'm fighting my way.

Hopefully people will stop asking me the same thing again. =(

New baby!

My previous phone spoiled. Some of the buttons are not working. Anyhow, it's repairing 'cause it still looks new. Moreover, all my contacts are inside. I gotta get them before I accidentally pick up some unwanted calls. And I think I'm gonna take a Digi's number. Loads of my friends are using Digi. -.-

Anyway, I got a new phone! Thanks mami! <3

C6!

Fly like a C6!

It is basically almost the same with Nokia 5800 but I'm not sure about the functions la. Since it's newer, it should've much more functions than 5800. And there's a full qwerty keyboard. *very obvious.



It's quite big, I somehow prefer my w705 and I get used of the manipulation of Sony Ericsson. Nahh I used Nokia before as well, like.... a month? -.- I lost my bloody 5800 remember? One month is not enough for me to manipulate a Nokia expertly.


Actually I was considering about Satio. =/ But my aunt said it's too big for me and it's kinda old already. =( I like Satio wan mahhhh.


But still, I love my phone. Haha. I'll try to understand you more and more. <3


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Another thing, CAR. About CAR! I'm really desperate for a car for so long already. Within the time without car, friends keep asking me out but I forced to reject them 'cause

I . Dont . Have . A . Car!

Everytime people ask me out, I have to say 'Sorry I dont have car. Sorry I dont have car. Sorry I dont have car. sorry I dont have car...' bla bla bla. Pffttttttttt.
I feel so sorry for that. I really wanna hangout with you guys but I cant! Argh!
Mum said gonna buy me a car. But hor, secondhand one. =/ 'Cause I always bang my car. From my standpoint, I should have a secondhand car too eventhough new car is better. What to do. I'm not a careful driver. T.T
I hate WIRA! But I think I'm going to have a Wira. YERRRRRRRRRRRRR.......


Nevermind lahhhhhhhhhhhhh. Better than nothing rightttttt. =/ And I really need a car.


CARRRRRRRRR!!!

Strangers

Some guy on my fb leave a message for me, the title 'tell u a true'. This is exactly what that person wrote. The content of the message is some sorta response about the info I written on my fb.

Based on 'I hate strangers ask for my number 'cause I dont know how to reject them.' ,

that person says, why strangers ask for your number? Because those who familiar with me and acquaintances already had my number, so only the strangers will ask for it. And want me 'dont be so serious'.

Hello, this is my privacy, I SHOULD BE SERIOUS of it.

Anyway, your comment or message is kinda superfluous. Of course only strangers will ask for my number! And thanks a lot for 'telling me a true' like this. I'll never knew if you never tell.

Come, let me tell you MY DEFINITION of STRANGER.

Stranger is someone I never meet and I never know or I barely know.

For example, those strangers on fb. Do you really think I should give my phone number to them if they ask for it?! Let me TELL YOU A TRUTH, no one will ever do that. UNLESS, unless he's someone you seen before or maybe friend's friend and his friendliness or attitude or whatever strikes you favourably from the first impression.

Another example, would you give your number to someone who come to you out of sudden and ask 'I wanna befriend with you, can you give me your phone number?'. Will you? I dont know what you thinking but definitely a NO from me. Siao meh, you thought so easy to get my number ar.

And let me TELL YOU ANOTHER TRUTH, the reasons you will give a person you number, first, you interested to that person. Second, you wanna know that person more. Third, that person is cute.

Dude, now you got me?

So I say, dont simply comment on something you're not really clear with it. I wont stop you from what you thinking but dont tell me what and how should I being myself unless you really know what I'm talking about. Tsk tsk.

Okok, I am willing to listen and accept all the comments errr opinions if it's reasonable. I just dont like people speak something like they are right and I should listen and change myself when they are actually not really know what I'm talking. So erm, get what I really meant, only speak your opinions. I'll appreciate it.

Thanks for the message anyway dude. ;)

X.o.x.o.

Sorry That I Loved You - Anthony Neely

For all of the times that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine

For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

And Im so sorry for...
Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by

For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time

And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I held you tight

An apology now after all of this time
Won`t make any difference tonight
But im hopin "im sorry" will open your mind
To love love love love in your life


Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right （tonight）
So sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was fallin in love with you （I was falling in love）
Im sorry that it came true but sorry doesn't turn back time

I'm sorry that I loved you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I'm so sorry that I loved you
I'm so sorry that I hurt you

I'm sorry that I loved you....

Sorry That I Loved You - Anthony Neely

Dont you think he's so so so so cute and adorable?! Omg! *Screaming*
Love this song! <3<3<3

Another query

There's another weird question I realised some guys will ask when we are texting on the phone or MSN. Some guys, mostly guys will ask this like out of sudden or before they off to bed or whatever.

'Can I hear your voice?'

...

...I'm actually kinda speechless when some people actually asking me this question. This question is like 'wtf?' and what you expect me to reply you?

Ok I assumed that you're asking this is to get something like "permission" to make a call for me ot hinting me that you wanna call me.

'Yea sure you can hear my voice!'

or

'Yea please hear my voice.'

or

'No, you cant hear my voice.'

SEE! Weird right?! What I can say?? I dont know what some guys are thinking when they're asking this question. If girl says 'Yes' means she might got something on you and when girl says 'No' means she's not interested on you?

Lemmi tell you, NO SUCH THEORY.

We might say YES 'cause we dont know what we can say and it's rude to say NO.

But really no offense. What I mean is this question is really unnecessary. Just call if you wanna hear her voice. If you scared whether she happy for that or not, you can just sense it from her voice. On the contrary, if she really dislikes your call, she might just ignore your calls, right?


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I wanna blog about my rash but I lazy to transfer the photos from camera. Hmm I'll blog about it asap. Haha. Let you see my horrible skin. XD

To be continued.

If you wanna die faster, just live like this

I got this article from fb. It listed out all the kind of life styles to die faster AND I fulfilled 14 out of 20. I'm dying soon I guess. Lol!

最短命的活法，不要命的就这么活吧

1. 长时间对着电脑 (Face your computer for hours)
2. 晚上十一点以后睡觉 (Sleep after 11p.m.)
3. 不能保证睡眠时间 (Cant assure sleeping hour)
4. 极度缺乏体育锻炼 (Extremely lack of exercises)
5. 有病不求医 (Do not consult doctor when sick)
6. 吃饭口味偏重，特别喜欢咸的和辣的 (Especially like spicy and salty food)
7. 不饿不吃；不困不睡；不累不息 (Ent only when you're hungry; sleep only when you're sleepy; rest only when you're tired)
8. 与家人缺少交流 (Lack of communication with family)
9. 长时间用手机打电话，享受近距离辐射 (Always make calls with handphone, enjoy radiation)
10. 三餐饮食无规律 (Do not eat at proper time)
11. 一直呆在空调房里，还不停喝冷饮 (Stay in an aircon room for hours and still keep drinking cold drinks)
12. 早上睡得很晚，错过早餐 (Wake up late and skip the breakfast)
13. 把酒精饮品、碳酸饮料、茶、咖啡、果汁、乳制品等饮料当水喝 (Drink alcohol, soft drinks, tea, coffee, juices, dairy products like drinking water)
14. 生活没有规律，忙时太忙；闲时太闲 (Dont have a disciplinary life style)
15. 喝水太少，不渴到一定境界绝对懒得喝 (Lack of intake of water)
16. 在床上看书看报 (Read while lying on the bed)
17. 抽烟或者喝酒 (Smoke or alcoholic)
18. 坐车看书看报或者玩手机 (Read or play your handphone in the car)
19. 长时间坐着，不管是学习、工作还是娱乐 (Sit for hours no matter studying, working or playing)
20. 不吃早餐 (Do not eat breakfast)

I already tried my best to translate all of these. -.-
But it seems a life style of most of the students nowadays right? Damn. I really swear to myself a lot to make my life style normal, at least sleep early everyday. And then jogging every morning but I cant 'cause I need a companion to jog with me. =/
Let see when I can achieve it.
And then I feel like wanna go learn something like drum? =D Argh!
Whatever let it starts from tmr! I'll wake up early in the morning and sleep very early every night! :D I'll look younger and glow like a star! And HEALTHY! Woohoo!

Single's Day

Haha sorry for guys who still single and available 'cause I cant find any other better song for today. XD Just sing it if you're single today!
I am single.
And I am enjoying it currently. Ok to be honest, if you're not an extravert, single life is kinda boring. Like in my case, I'm not really ahomey but I'm living like a homey. I stay at home almost everyday, I can never step out of my house like two days, I dont have friends to hangout here, I face my laptop since I wake up til I sleep. Argh I DONT WANT IT but I've no choice 'cause I DONT HAVE A CAR (I did have one actually but it's too troublesome to explain)! So my single life is extremely bored to the max! And I swear to myself once I get my car I'll go out everyday like crazy.
To the contrary, if you like to hangout, friends alot, everyday got functions, parties and IF you have a car, omg single the best! Dont you think so?
Come come, let me tell you the benefits of being single.
First, about jealousy. You dont have to worry there's a person might be jealous if you hangout with friends without him/her, or even with him/her! You can play as crazy as you like with anyone and without any misgiving if you touch someone's hand accidently or say something out accidently that he/she dislike.
It's fine if the partner is forgetful or generous. If the partner is damn jealousy, couldnt let anyone touch you, couldnt let anyone talk to you even stare at you? D . I . E Sure die. Later fight la, quarrel la this and that. Then break up. Sigh. Sadness and troublesome.
Second, if YOU are jealousy, die also. Everyday jealous here and there and angry, if I was your gf I'll surely dump you. Haha!
Third, if your partner is toooooooo tied up. Ha Ha Ha. I'm single and I'm laughing at you. Congrates, you got a control freak as your gf/bf. Okay no offense to all the control freaks.
You cant go anywhere without his/her permission. You're not allowed to drink with your buddies at night. You (guys) have to beg for permission before you smoke but it's a right thing of course. You're (girls) not allowed to wear singlets, skirts. When everyone is having fun at night, you're not allowed to go 'cause he'she is not going. You're not allowed to talk to those opposite sex with you. You're not allowed to use fb/msn. Arghhh. Scary? Yes! Happy?? Yes! Single damn happy!
Fouth, SAVE MONEY! Haha truth. 'Cause you only spend money yourself. You dont need to buy branded beg for your gf. You dont need to buy branded wallet for your bf. You dont need to prepare any presents for your partner. Guys, IF your gf is a material girl, gai, you sure gold dig by her until you dry! Lol! For girls still fine. *If you're damn rich then skip this la.
Fifth, you can have LOADS of 'kang taos'! You know what I'm saying. *winks*
Sixth, you can go ANYWHERE and EVERYWHERE with ANYONE ANYTIME and you need not to ask permission from anyone except your mother. Super random! ;)
Seventh, you dont need to scared if you forget her birthday or you didnt remember any anniversaries. You dont need to afraid if she asks 'Do you know what special day today is?' out of sudden. And if you dont remember that, you die (some of them lah). You dont need to prepare different surprises on different festivals.
SEE! Single! If you're single you've nothing to worry! Besides worry about when only you got a bf/gf. =/
Yeaaa in a relationship got loads of benefits as well but today is Single's Day! We dont talk about it. haha!
Okok. That's all for today.
Happy Single!!
X.o.x.o.

Learn the lesson

People always say, forget all the sadness and remember all the happiness. It's nothing wrong. But I think, we should remember both the sad's and the happy's.

Let's see, how can we just pick something happy to keep in your mind? Forget about the sadness means you forget HOW, WHY you were sad. We should remember because of WHAT and that's why you were so sad.

But of course, I didnt say we must remember and detest people who did something bad on you. We can forgive and forget about the people 'cause they arent worth you to spend so much energy to hate them. Just forget them but, remember the lessons you leant from that and remind yourself the pain and how sad you were. Thus you will avoid to do the same mistake next time. Right?

We remember good things 'cause they are memorable.
We remember the sad things to remind ourselves think twice before we do something stupid again.

Hmm whatever lah.

To be continued.

♥ ♥ ♥

New camera! So must camwhore abit! XD

Ok hmm I dont know what model is that but thank papa anyway! And mami! <3

My lovely cat! Damn cute right!

New Camera!

Hot and cold!

Got back from genting and now I'm freaking fell sick. I think 'cause of the weather or I drink too little water. =/ Or both. Haha.

It was too cold there! Everyone is sick now. My mum got a flu. My cousin cough like a turkey and me, I thought I'm the healthiest. == But then I'm having high fever and sore throat when I reached home. And the damn headache is almost kills me. Very cham.

I slept at 4sth a.m. woke up at 7sth a.m. 'cause I felt my whole body was like burning though my feet and hands are cold. Took some pills but still I keep waking up every two hours until 4 p.m.. And my phlegm got blood!

Lucky thing I feel much better now eventhough I'm kinda dizzy. But no more headache!

Pray for myself. -_-

Hawtie-to-be

A conversation between me and Mun Tatt just now. Feel free to skip this. LOL.

MT: I got eat. Just can't fat lol. I'm so gonna work out after final hehehe Determine d. Later don't call me hawtie when you see my body.

Me: LMFAO!!!! Okok. As if you van make it. I promised I wont kao you. Lol!

MT: I dont think I can cause I'm not really discipline. But at least got some shape la. That time you slowly take number la

Me: ROFLMFAO!!!! Can I share this happiness on my blog??? Can??? Can??? Btw, can I book the num first before everyone siao you. Lol!!

MT: Can! Somemore you can take photos of me. IF I got the result. Since we are so friend, I give you the first 10 numbers la.

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I requested for signature as well. ;)
Dont be jealous I got the first 10 numbers. Lol!



*See, I never exaggarate anything. These are exactly what you said right?

Btw, I just learnt a new word from the hawtie - PINKY PROMISE!

New Hawttie

*I'm forced erm noh asked to make a smalllll edittion.

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Been requested to blog about a hawttie so here it goes.

I've to change

THIS

to

THIS

"Recently I talked to a hawttie."

Okay

WHO . IS . THE . HAWTTIE

*drumroll*

LMAO! Mun Tatt, you gonna sooo regret for asking me to blog about HAWT YOU when you see this. Like you are really hawt. LOL!! Ok lah maybe to some people la. I'm apathy to know. XD

Yes, the hawttie I'm talking about is MUN TATT CHANNNNNNN. (bet you're damn regret now lmao)

Okay lah, nothing much I know about him. This hawt tatt is a new friend of mine I know err like month ago. Wei, actually what I can write about you huh? I cant think one. =/ Or you tell me lah what I can write. Though I think no one wanna know about you also. Lol!

Always ask me to sleep early, drink more water but himself never did. Haha.

Good luck for everything again! ;) To whatever you think it needs lucks.
More study . Less outing

To be continued.

P/s: Tell me if anything you want me to write about you huh! XD

Something to add on.

You look better with glasses. Lol!

Once in your life...?

What you think about marriage?

Oh well, when I was still a kid, I never think of this question. Okay err in my point of view, I assured that marriage is happens only ONCE in your whole life. When I was a kid mah. I thought all the couples married and then will all live happily ever after until they die. =/

But now I still think that marriage SHOULD be just happens only ONCE in your life. I cant say I've met alot of people and seen alot of things, but still, during the time I stayed in Penang, I seen some people. Even they got a gf/bf, once their gf/bf are not around, they fuck around. I mean they do something like they are single.

Ok I didnt mean to be offenssive or what. I dont even feel odd about this. It's like so common and happens to most of the people around me. *Nothing related to me* Some of them even married. =/

I kinda understand that when something bad happen between you and your spouse and you get smothered or whatever reason, ok not you la, them. They tempt to find some comforts from other girls. But OF COURSE it's not a fucking excuse for you to cheat on your spouse.

I've always thought that people married cuz they really found the right one and whatever habits or personalities that they couldnt stand should be all get used of it, SO they get married.

But when I grew elder, loads of them get married just because they HAVE to.
Reasons:

• Cause of pregnancy. (always happen to the irrational/immature youngsters)
• It's time to get married. (eventhough they already lose all the novel sensation and left responsibility)
• They couldnt find someone else. (I think this related to the previous reason, it's time to get married but still they could find another better one or whatever)

Any other reasons? Anyway, the first reason caused the most divorces. Girls get pregnant, give birth, have a baby, hunsbands betrayed, fights, divorce (some of them). Then why?! Why get married?! Why didnt do all the preventions since you cant take the burden?

For guys, please DO wear condom or any other prevention when you have sex with your gf or any other girls IF YOU ARE NOT GOING TO MARRY WITH THEM or DONT EVEN START IT. How selfish this kind of guy!

For girls, protect yourself nicely. Dont easily get pregnant until you meet the one who can marry with. I dont know how to know whether the one can be trust or marry with or not la BUT those who unwilling to do prevention behalf on you are definitely not the one you should trust in. Unless he's ready for everything and purposely wanna knock you up so you can marry him la LOL.

Stop rambbling. I wont judge them if I know any of my friend cheated or kinda cheated on their partners as long as my future bf dont do this to me.

I hope I can only have ONE WEDDING, ONE HUSBAND, and ONE FAMILY. Then after married, me and my husband will live happily ever after, never get bored of each other. XD

As it is, nothing can assure permanent happiness.

Life is too short! Enjoy the moment!

<3 <3 <3