Is me, dont wanna confront it or what?
It's like all the evidences are putting in front of me but I still hoping for something?

This is how I tell my friends, 'Once over, it's over.'
Yea, I insisted this. Cuz everything happens for the reasons. It must be something wrong or the problems there and caused the relationships end.

'He doesnt trust me at all!'
'She wanted me to pay everything she bought. It makes me broke!'
'He's awful! He shower once a week!'
'He lies to me!'
'She wants me to carry her fluffy bag for her everytime we date!'
'He thought he's a king that he wanted me to wash his underwear and he think this is reasonable!'
'He's too jealousy. He doesnt allow me to go out even on fb!'
...
and so on.
'That's why we broke up.'

And then a love story is over.

Yeah we know, to build a relationship, we need trust, tolerance, honesty, understanding, enthusiasm, loyalty and etc.
We are imperfect. We make mistake sometimes. So we need tolerance. But it only use in first few times. Do it repeatingly means you dont take it serious. It'll becomes your habit, and then problems come.
When comes to making mistakes' part, we also need understanding. Cuz there are some mistakes you need to know what's the reason. For examples, why he is late? Why he didnt pick up your calls? Why he/she didnt tell you why they're outing with someone you might feel insecure?

See, it's easy to talk but always hard to do.
Okok, back to the topic. I'm not here for teaching and I'm too green to teach about these. XD

Alright. I'm the one say, 'once over, it's over', but I cant do it. *now I know
I cant hold myself to think maybe we're just misunderstanding each other?
I cant hold myself to recall every good thing when I forced myself to face the problems and convince myself that we're good. I'm just think too much.
I wanna believe that we can make it. I try to, but I'm really scared.

According to what I said, what I did are just slapping my own mouth.

You're still the same, I'm still the same.
We are still the same.

# Just because someone doesnt love you the way you want them to, doent mean they dont love you with all they have. #

or
# Dont waste your time on a man/woman, who isnt willing to waste their time on you. #

Which should I refer to? =/

Once it broken.

You can paste it back if you break a vase or a glass. But as the saying goes, even if it can paste it back, the rips still there.

Then what about trust? Once it's broken, that's really hard to paste back. At least it's based on my own ecxperience. Haha.
So should we just ignore the rips? Or just admit that, you cant take those already broken?

Yes I'm a coward. And I'm scared to endure the same thing again.
Alcohol can enlarge your courage! ;)

Now I know =)

I thought I'll be a very good girlfriend until I found out that I'm actually not.
I thought forgiveness is the best way to show I'm understanding. I thought it'll make my bf appreciate me even more cuz I'm way understanding than others. But now I know it doesnt work that way I thought. =/

I always say 'up to you', 'whatever' doesnt mean I dont have my own mind, cuz I wanna know what's in your mind. But now I know it's very important to speak my mind.

I'm not romantic. I dont know how to creat surprises like how other gfs can do though I really wanna make one for my bf. It's really struggling and upset when some special day is coming soon. I really wanted to do something but everytimes end up nothing.

There might have some defects that I forgot to mention but yeah, I'm not as good as I thought haha.

While in the opposite side, I FULLY trust my bf. =) But you must act on the premise that YOU'RE LOVE ME. Cuz I'll appreciate you every minute and second.

Remember that I wrote a post about terms of being my bf? Now I found myself was being so arrogant and self-conceited. That's stupid. *Cheh, who I thought I was.

While I lose something, I gain something as well.

Terms of being my bf:
1. Respects
2. Appreciate me

That's all. =)

Hahaha it sounds like I'm promoting myself! Whateverrrrrr. XD
I'm cool! ;)

Ergh... My blog is so in unbearably pinky. I adsolutely need to edit it again someday. ==

I'm boredddd to the max!

I dont like pink actually. But I've no idea most of the things are fine in pink, thank other colors. So sometimes I have no choice but to pick the one. =/ Pink is like... too girly. Well I'm a girl but I'm definitely not a girly girl. I prefer to be an awesome! Or cool and impressive perhaps! XDD Hahaha.

I'm really bored. =(

And I realised that I started to get bored of my job. It's not physically tiring. It's like... mentally tiring. Cuz I've nothing to do but to start working from 12pm to 11pm. Imagine! I cant go anywhere! Even I wish I could go out after work but it's quite late! And one thing, I dont have the keys (I'm staying in my aunt's house remember) and I cant hold the keys cuz they said it's too dangerous as I must understand the area they stay are quite creepy (robberies happen once in awhile). Indeed. Another thing, I cant sleep late. I'll get scold if I do. You know what, for me it was like so hard! I only got my time for these hours! I dont wanna spend it with sleep. == WHY?! Why cant I sleep late?? I can manage my time myself!

And somehow I felt my aunt and her husband are abit prissy and squeamish. I need to be very, very becareful to do everything. Cuz I dont know whenever, what ever I did which might unplease them. Creepy! But they are nice to me I've to admit that.
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Bastard! You're stupid! Hng!
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Mahathir stands for?

The person who invented this is genius!

When Dr. Mahathir was Prime Minister of Malaysia

One lousy day in the middle of the economic crisis, PM Mahathir was feeling extremely frustrated and wondering how a neighboring country can be doing better than Malaysia .

One of his aides said, I heard that the leaders consult Feng Shui masters to ensure prosperity for the country. Dr Mahathir thought if that was the case, Malaysia Bomoh also can, and went to seek the top bomoh's advice in the country.

After reviewing the case, the bomoh told Dr M that there were 2 things that he must do:

Bomoh: Step 1. You must blame the crisis on SOROS for everything.
Dr M: But Why?
Bomoh: Because SOROS stands for 'Speculate On Ringgit Or Stocks'. You must blame him, and look at ways to control the ringgit and stock market.

Bomoh: Step 2 - You must get rid of ANWAR.
Dr M: What! why him?
Bomoh: Because ANWAR stands for 'A Nation Without Any Ringgit'.
Dr M: But how? This is most difficult to do, he is popular with the people.
Bomoh: Aiyoh, you bodoh lah! Look at your name, MAHATHIR.
Make Anwar Homosexual And Then Highlight It Repeatedly

This one lagi best. The latest according to the trend.
Subject:
M.A.H.A.T.H. I.R

This is a new acronymn... stands for:
Must
Always
Hantam
Abdullah
Till
He
Is
Removed

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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!

Let me cry first. I'll be fine.